judi's world

2010-09-19T23:20:00.004+08:00

its been some time since i last blog!
i almost forget my password!
anyway, please wait for my update!
i will be back~ :D

Just to let you know what i have been busying with soooo far,
im v v busy with my work and studies.
i always tell my mgr, im so busy that i dont even have time to sleep!
actually im just exaggerating cos im very free during weekends.
so please ask me out to cure my boredness! :)
everything is going well for me right now,
currently switching to mon wed and fri mode schooling mode.
work has been fine so far,
colleague has been rather nice.
but the colleague who has been sending me to work,
has resigned.
so i must wake up earlier,
so that i can travel to pioneer mrt to meet mgr.
my workplace is simply troublesome w/o a car.
actually, im pondering whether to drive our company pick up,
but im afraid.
esp of parking.
shall see how it goes.
if i drive the pick up,
it will be more convenient to go work or school. :)
There are still lots of things for me to learn,
for me to do.
im glad i have a nice boss who is willing to teach patiently.
More things for me to do, esp like following up subcon minutes of meeting,
and following up on my submission.
Health has been rather bad :(
On MC 3 days last week.
because i feel giddy.
slightly low blood pressure.
flu and cough is killing me too.
I am now learning to trust,
and hope everything will goes well :D
For school,
i am starting my sem 2 tml.
sem 1 has been going rather well for me,
i met 3 new friends.
and we often have dinner after our work.
im lucky to have a nice boss to drive me to school too.
ok, happiness doesnt last long i know! :X
whats more? i will be back if i remember.:)
okay thats all!

2010-06-10T20:08:00.004+08:00

eeeww its been some time since i last blogged!
i have been feeling very tired and shagged after i got home daily.
sat is for sf, and sun is my free day.
thats my daily routine.
sat before i went sf hse in the evening,
i would sleep my whole day, just like sis do.
cos its really boring doing nothing,
and seeing sis sleeping soo soundly,
i would follow her. :X
i have been sick after im back..
down with sore throat and flu.
kept coughing till mgr asked,
i guess u taking mc soon?
u cough till like u admitting to hospital soon.
oops.

anyway,
its been 2 weeks since im back.
i will upload pics later.
till i found my cable. ok im lazy to search for it.
anyway,
everything is fun with bby around.
she's simply just soooo cute and i just love her a lot~
and i love sis li too!!!
we should arrange a trip someday!
just the 3 of us :D
and i met up with my dearest besties!
LOVE :D
oh ya!
how can i forget such important updates!
i met up with dearest seventh for steamboat session.
after which, we went for k.
so i slept like 4 hrs plus,
with sore throat the next day.
and mgr caught me!
cos i look pale and he said my eyes look red :X

everything is fine at work,
its been a week since i went to site office at tuas.
in case u dont know,
its actually a container,
and we only had 4 tables at site office,
with a total of round 6 members.
and im the only sporean plus the only girl :X.
nicey colleague will send me to work daily,
if not another one will send me from jurong west stadium,
cos he go via bke, from checkpoint.
if mgr is here, he will drive me home before he went back with his jam.
everytime when im having dinner and enjoying my tv,
hes out there enjoying his traffic jam at checkpoint.
oops~
anyway,
my colleagues are all very nice, especially my mgr :)
the site office is really cold for me.
for those who know me well,
would know im afraid of cold instead of hot.
my mgr specially push up the air con plane,
so that the air con will not blow directly on me.
but its still cold! till the extent that he used a paper to cover the air con!
soo nice of him~ :D
long sleeve shirt n jacket arent enough.
think its all about me.
i shall overcome the coldness one day. :X

missy alice has called me one fine day,
and i realised i wronged her!
msia number dislikes me!
hahaha.
she insisted that she replied me but i did not receive can!
anyway,
im going in to JB to look for her this sun!
happy~ miss her lots!
i got tons to tell her!
hahaha!
and im looking forward to play with "chu chu"
her son~ :D

im going back to HQ tomorrow,
thanks to my "itchy backside"
ask mgr to go back with me.
so that we can get things done faster.
cos its a lil inconvenient at site office,
the printer is just like me,
one day siao 3 times. :X
and because of my itchy mouth,
i gotta bring the laptop back hm,
and also wake up at 5 plus.
cos the colleague is at site :(
actually i kind of missed HQ.
cos i somehow left "unknowningly".

ok~ thats all for my updates.
looking forward to dinner with prawnie.
though the troublesome girl always trouble me with MC!
i wonder did she wake up anyway!
waste my time only~

everytime i thought i made up my mind,
i swayed~
i knew this is not going to be easy for me.
but still,
everytime i set thinking,
im really tired.
i dont wish to waste my time like this.
i dont wish to see her unhappy.
i dont know what future lies ahead.
but i am a selfish girl.
i only want myself to be happy.
i am willing to try,
to give up.
i am already blessed enough to have everything.
its enough..

2010-05-16T13:30:00.004+08:00

it's been some time since i last blog.
has been really tired recently.
and i had no idea why.
perhaps due to waking up too early every morning?
working timing is 8-545.
However,its at defu lane. which is freaking far for me!
right opposite hougang ave.3 .
therefore, i got to wake up like 530 and left home at 630!
and the difference is really big compared to the days when colleague fetch me to work.
cause he came my hse at 715. which i can sleep an hour longer!
but nowadays, my routine resumes:(
cause he need to go to the site.
to ensure the safety over there,
as work has been commenced.
and when the site office is being set up,
i will switch over to benoi road! :) near tuas area.
manager promised to fetch me from jp. :D
since he drove from jb.
everything is still going on fine for me currently.
there are still a lot of stuffs for me to learn,
including civil and mechanical engineering stuffs.
the people there are very nice,
partly cos im considered the youngest over there.
other thn the admin exec who is 21 this yr.
and my gm goes,
are ur comparing who is the youngest now?
lol cos both of us are new. im 2 day older thn her.LOL
and my mgr keeps saying,
u are the youngest engineer we have.
i will tag colleague car home if they are in office.
if not i will be home only at 730pm :(
gotta cherish the time we had,
cos in another week,
i will be gone to site office.
and will be there for 1 yr.
cos our project is like 14 months.

whats there to update?
met up with sisters recently .
okay should say its the usual routine :)
met up with dearest shelle recently too.
her son is damn cute.:)
and yea,
met up with besties too! :D
whats more?
nothing much i guessed,
5 more days! :) :)
damn happy.
bby will be unhappy though. LOL.
alright.. thats all!

i hate everything that's happening now,
but nevertheless, i will get on with my life.

2010-04-28T00:15:00.007+08:00

im here to 随便讲几句before i left. LOL :X
what to updatE?
hmmm~ kaelyn is not coming my hse anymore.
kind of miss her thou she's here for only a week LOL
didnt get a chance to give her her minnie mouse! LOL :X
hmmm whats more?
im sick :(
i lost my voice.
gotten the virus from seniors.
3 of them are sick over there.
and there are once when i sit in the middle of them who are coughing so badly.
but well, sf cooked dessert for us. :) nice.
to bring down the internal heat.
whats more?
not going to slack at home anymore.
found a job.
but 1st month to work is v tiring.
cos at hougang, defu lane.
hopefully gt ppl live near thn can longbang LOL.
if not i must go out of hse by like 6-630 am?
crazy.
prawnie gonna like it if she works morning.LOL
hope the site office at tuas can build faster.
n if near aunt office will be better,
cos can send me to work as they send JJ to sch.LOL
i am gonna meet my dearest sisters again,
together with shelle and her son.
awww been soooo long since i saw shelle can?
without her ,
i might gonna die in my class during poly days. :X
errr i cant think of anything else at the moment. :)
sooo thats all.
gonna blog with pics if possible.
missed out the meeting with besties tml. :(
hope can meet up soon.

i dont know how to deal with you anymore,
so im gonna to let fate decide. :)
not gonna care anymore :)

2010-04-20T22:48:00.004+08:00

OK!
IM FINALLY BACK~
my life is not as bored than usual anymore..
i have yet to find a job though.
so what have i been doing?
most of my free time will be at sf house.
and he will teach me a lot of things.
a lil of feng shui also.
and calculating names.
he really teach me a lot, patiently.
and all of my sat will be at his house,
together with the seniors.
we had our lesson together,
in hokkien session.
yes, he speaks mostly hokkien.
but i reply in chinese.LOL
my seniors are great.
they sent me home,
watched me from downstair that i reach home safely.
yes my lift is transparent.
actually have been going this procedures very long le.
but lazy to say.
LOL.
sf help me earn a lil allowance at times.
he guides me patiently,
helps me when im in trouble.
and his wife always cook dinner for us.
oh, i seems to be contributing nth.=x

i believe what im doing now,
will have to go through a tough period before i see results.
not many might agree with what im doing,
but at least im happier.
i learnt new stuffs.
at least, although im not working,
but im not sponging on my parents either.
i try not to go out often.
to prolong my savings.hehee.
i believe,凡是起头难。
请不要用不一样的眼光来看我，
因为，我就是我。

and nw,
baby kaelyn is at my house.
as in she will be coming my house daily,
with the maid.
to get used to new environment.
and she is not as difficult as i taught.
at least, she allows me to carry her now.
she scared of stranger u see.
simply love the way she smile.
but yesterday was the 1st day,
so diff to determine anything.
cos she dont sleep!
from 4am till 7pm or so?
i take care of her while mummy goes work.
together with the maid.if nt i cry.
skali cant handle how?
but still ok la.
she goes mum mum mum whn i feeds her pandan cake!LOL

as for the things that used to bother me a lot,
i thought i let it go.
but everything i did,
smth happen.
let fate decide.
but i kind of know my decision already.
hope i wont sway anymore.
will be meeting for the last time,
to get back my thing..

i feel so blessed,
cos i gt sf and his wife, plus the seniors,
i gt my family to stand by me.
i got hubby and li.
i gt all my frens.
so whats more can i ask for? nth. :)

2010-03-21T23:48:00.003+08:00

won't be updating regularly.
my life is such a bore.
though i went out at times.
and every sat will be sf day.
thats all.

i believe i reap what i sow.
i believe its not over.
i will do my last try before its really over.
have faith!

2010-03-04T22:42:00.010+08:00

i am here.
bored again.
thats why.:)
but i got more pics uploaded today! hehe.
i got nothing much to update.
i can only say i am very bored at home.
help me.
even mummy is working pt at times.
helping up as a cleaner at some condo i heard.
mummy gg new zealand leh!
i think round june.
COOL!
but i dont really like the company.
so im nt tagging along.
but bby n i gg taiwan plus HK trip in may :)
woo hoo!
been feeling rather down.
got a feeling gt a lot of things are unsettled.
i dont know how to start with though.
just wanna tell my girls,
who think im behaving wierdly,
esp bby..
im ok.. seriously.
just feel like having some time of my own.
人在繁忙中也会想在自己的小空间。
this is what happens when i got so much time at home.
i will think LOL!
i need to get a job soon.
if not i will go crazy at home.
i think thats all.
photos shall speak a thousand words.

失望，不甘心。
不甘心被误会。
不甘心早该去解决。
不过那又如何？
我也无能为力。
我不知什么是信任。
信任值多少？
等待已久的答案，
就是这样吗？

this is my 15 yrs of fren,
i rmb yrs ago we have a pic like this.
in sec sch days.
will dig it out soon LOL

ok found.LOL

my silly plus crapping partner :)

she is eating a disgusting egg.LOL

this is what happens when someone eats an egg beside me!!!

besties...
no matter how busy i am,
they never fail to standby me.
they always forgive me..
despite im the oldest among them,
they tc of me more than i do so.LOL
i am glad i have such a bunch of gd frens around me,
not forgetting bby and li,
seventh, ru and bin. :)

2010-02-27T20:07:00.005+08:00

I am so bored that i decided to blog.
but no idea what to update.
starting to feel the boreness :(
had lunch with prawnie yesterday,
before heading to the office.
i went to collect my last pay.
i feel i did not see prawnie v v long.
for like 2wks can!
i won the game and gotten the polariod.LOL
i kind of like the polariod we take. :X
but well, she's a very good friend of baby(cousin) and i. LOL
i think i must be crazy.
to think i saw someone which is impossible.
its not him. i know.
i am still trying hard.
give me time.
anyway,
went to find minyi after i gotten my pay.
she's cutting her hair.
at the salon i patronised previously.
we were famished after that.
cos she rebonded before cutting.
went to had our dinner.
but its somehow ruined by the cockroach.
eewwww :(
i am so bored.
cos siblings not at home.
parents went out too.
awww.
tml's kind of busy.
going for CC meeting.
then to sf hse.
thn to cousin hse.:)
gonna settle down soon.
mummy ask me to scrimp and save,
since im jobless.
anyone want to yang me? LOL
ok i got not much pics,
cos mostly at minyi cam.
so i upload a few first.
and yes,
tml is the last episode of love concerto,
下一站，幸福。
cant wait! its sooo nice! heee.

2010-02-25T22:28:00.006+08:00

quite a number of things have been happening lately.
i am now jobless,
but since its somehow the new yr season,
i am still enjoying.
but gonna start looking for a new job soon.
pray hard.
and pray hard i gt a place in pt course.
i applied for SIM accounting anyway..
someday,
somehow i made a decision.
which affects me...
but its time to do so.
now i feel like gg MIA.
shut myself down.
this is the 1st time i feel so.
but well,
u noe i need time.
i have cut my hair short.
a brand new me.
ok picture shall say a thousand words.

其实我要的是个答案，不是个选择。
不过，竟然事情已如此，
我也只好接受。
我想，这真的是最后一次了吧。
否则我也不会这么烦恼。:(
让彼此从新开始吧。。。
28 号。
我还在等待。
不过，我知道我是白等了。
算了吧。

for those who know me, i love bear bear.:)

2010-02-20T12:45:00.003+08:00

大家新年好！
我回来了！
近来有点忙。
呵呵。是懒惰啦。
大家新年过得如何？
我觉得有点闷勒！
可能是长大了吧。
今天也没什么拍照。

ok back to eng mode.
lazy.:X
this yr is kind of boring as i said.
but one thing that never changed is,
parents would tell me,
你啊！！脾气要修炼一下啦！
forever. -_-"
i once called the whole family and scold when i lost my stuff.
which is like a few days ago.
i hate ppl who touched my stuffs.
ok..
我知错了。
well i spent my valentine day with mighty ongs,
and also the tan family.( my mum's side)
frankly speaking, i dont really like my mum's side.
they are too smart for me. LOL
i only clicked with one cousin.
就因为我们一样坏。
其实，我也不是很坏嘛！！！
we are the only stupid person there.LOL
all grad with uni cert.
we are the only "normal acad" students.
LOL.
he used to find me when he needs help.
but now,
we got our own stuffs,
we somehow drifted.:(
anyway,
初一 is somehow boring.
spent my day at 大姨house mainly.
and played with my nephews.
they are simply cute!!!
can i have one too? LOL ! rubbish me!
but i feel so old when they call me 姑姑。
oh ya,
i finally realized how far it is from jurong to tampines.
i feel like crying when there are traffic jam.
cos im the driver. LOL
its really super far.
and they should be glad that i made it.

i went back to work on 初二。
nothing much happened.
super duper busy.
but i loved it,
好久没这种感觉了。
its like war to us i would say.
emperor and empress came my house for steamboat session.

初三去舅舅家。
also steamboat.
oh no!
whats worse is,
after his house,
we went to 三叔 who also cooked steamboat.
LOL.
i went to sf hse before gg san shu house.
sf say im already lucky enough...
being able to go out for the 1st 2 days.
which he cant.
this is just a natural thing to us.
so i cant grumble that i feel wierd.
that smth is wrong.
and this will last for 3 yrs. :(

ok,
yesterday was mighty ong annual event.
i had fun.
thanks to sis for "clearing my shit" at home.
though she scolded,
why did you go even you know u cant?
i just wanted to enjoy.for once.
and yesterday was my last day at work.
有种舍不得的感觉。
毕竟在那里蛮久了。
i learnt a lot.
and im glad.
did i ever mention?
there are one auntie who dote on me a lot.
that she wished im her daughter in law. LOL.
but well,
fate cant be forced.
i will miss her. a lot.
but well,
we cant still keep in contact.

i dont know what to say.
so thats all.

i wished things would get better.
seriously.
and its just because of pride...
ai yo...

2010-02-10T10:57:00.015+08:00

i am back.
with photos perhaps.
so whats been happening?hmmmm~
one fine day,
mummy , JJ, 2 aunts cousin and i went to sentosa.
to visit the universal studio.
its soooo nice!!!
anyway, its the preview for staff and families.
my cousin got tix. sooo...
cannot imagine sentosa can be sooo nice la. =x

anyway, whats more?
dad's shop has closed down,
other than the 1st day he complained,
oh no, what am i supposed to do for the next few days?
only 1st day n im sooo bored.
he's busy throughout.
i dont know why are there so many gases to be delivered?
or what has he been doing outside?
but im glad at least he enjoyed what he's doing.
thats the most important.
mummy asked,
how much did u earned per day?
he retort,
dont care how much i earned,
at least i got something to do.
heheheh.
oh yes,
heard from daddy that a school wanted our shop to donate our signboard..
cos i guess its the oldest signboard they can ever seen ba?

valentine.
i celebrated with my sisters in advance.
a nice meet up.
we went NP, bugis and chinatown.
we went shopping.
day out with them are forever nice.
the time passes very fast though.:(
i love the fun and craziness we had.
ok i am v v crazy that day i admit. :X

work.
19 is my last day.
i am not sure what im going to say.
anyway,
i really learned a lot there.
appreciate it lots..

oh ya,
brought grandad, parents and sis for a ride at flyer.
emperor and parent's 1st ride.
i am glad emperor enjoyed it a lot.
thats what it matters most.
went to seafood paradise for dinner..
brother joined us.
the food there is really nice i would say.
*thumbs up*
thanks bro for the treat.
LOL.(though im the one signing :X)
mummy said i "拿他屁股当面纸贴" LOL..

i am looking forward to CNY.
though i got only 1 day to enjoy.
but well..
after chu 6 i can enjoy more! :X
i love CNY because i loved the gatherings.
esp mighty ong gathering.
:)
oh ya, its the valentine too.
im cele it with my mighty ong.
cool :)
and yea,
for those who i owe ur smth,
but in whatever way i forgot,
rmb to bug me!
i dont like to owe ppl stuffs after new yr!
LOL!
and for those who owe me stuffs,
hiak hiak...
rmb to return me too!LOL...

hmmm. no idea what to blog. so thats all.

-our childhood...

-e oldest socket u can ever seen...

2010-02-01T19:49:00.003+08:00

Oops,
it's been a week since i last blog.
nothing much have been happening for the last week.
i made up my decision,
and off i go.
now im working hard,
to acheive my goals.
YHL is closed officially today.=(
a shop that seen all of us grow up.
a shop that my daddy and his brothers worked hard for.
i wonder what dad is going to do can!
though he said he will continue to deliver gas.
i know deep down he is sad.
cos he woke up super early today!
he left home at 630 can!
(he usually left at 7am sharp)
i don't know how to help,
i can only take care of myself,
so that he can be less worried.
so what's my plan?
to find a stable job,
to find a school,
and study part time.
i wanted to study accountancy.
so pray hard.
so what's more?
i highlighted my hair.
looks a little "lian"
oh no. 好不容易变乖了。哈哈哈。
you know what?
i went to kim tian,
aunty's salon.
im rather shocked.
cos grandma's place have been demolished.
and became a carpark.
a condo i think?
it looks so nice.
but her place is gone=(
now it's YHL turn. :'(
aunt said i grew taller.LOL
i guess cos i wore mini skirt.
while waiting for mummy to get her hair done,
i walked around alone.
memories flashed back.
though grandma and i arent that close.
seriously, i missed her.
i hope tiger year will be a better year for everyone of us.=)
will update photos of YHL in the next post.
ok thats all

2010-01-23T23:12:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JIE JIE~
my er xin de da bian, ms joey ong.
29 yrs old!
time to get a bf and get married off!
so that i can have my own room.LOL
she is a good sis.
though she can be real nasty at times.
depends on our mood u see.
i love the time we quarrel,
we fight,
the time i put all the blame on her,
and she gets scolded.LOL
i love the time she helped me.
financially wise in some way too.

i am starting to enjoy my off day.
i went to the chi physician in the morning.
and went JP with precious n mummy at night.
pocket burned,
just treating them and our shopping sprees.
i carried kaelyn.
for at least 5 mins.
thats improvement.
i played peek a boo with her,
which makes me feel like a monkey.LOL
she is the replica of xiao gu can.
i love her big eyes!
a big mouse passed by our leg while waiting for cab to go home.
wtf, the mouse was soooo big can!!
i slept at 4 plus.
just to watch next stop of happiness.=)
ok,
i got nth to update.
i dont know what to do.
i have off on sun.
but they gg YHL on sat.
sun is the actual day of closing though.
how how?
can i have off on both days?
*dreaming*
i made my decision on something,
which i have been pondering for some time.
i am sure i wont regret my decision.

2010-01-18T00:39:00.002+08:00

i am here.
judi has finally gotten a new phone.
cos prawnie ask me throw my phone away.
LOL no la.
phone really dying soon.
anyway, gotten an iphone last fri.
cos i think its more stable thn my satio.
its really funny whenever people mistook precious as my son can!!
cos i brought him to acc me get a new phone.
mummy at home doing spring cleaning.
the service crew tell me,
its good to have a baby boy.
thn ask me, how many children do u have?-_-"
i got the "diao kia" face.zzz~
the person say cos he look like me.
thn he's so sweet to me just like her son.
come on JJ is sweet to anyone.LOL
anyway,
precious have been afraid of gg sch lately.
he cries every morning.
his nicey dad has taken 3days off to acc him.
precious told me,
later the door close,
i cannot go home.
i think he's traumatised by the childcare.
esp when he's alone waiting for ppl to fetch him.
i went sf hse on fri.
and i dunno why,
"i" cried.( if u ever understand)
and my whole body ache after everything can!!
sat went to ps after work.
cele boon tee bdae.
went play after that.
its been such a long time since i club.
and i drank a lil.
maybe half a cup only la.
i really enjoyed myself can!
as in with the acc of usual gang.
slept 3 hrs.
go work.
after that dinner.
3rd uncle's treat(zg dad)
u noe i drove to the coffeeshop.
thn i tried parking.
damn scary la.
the lorry so big.
the car beside me is a new car.
i v scared i hit it la.LOL
i parked halfway only.
cos really too close. i scared.=x
i cant afford to compensate the owner.
ok la..
i am tired.
ok bye bye.
oh ya,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOON TEE!=)

is it a good or bad thing that somehow u changed?
or did i see wrongly that u went back on sun?=x

2010-01-15T13:40:00.010+08:00

i am here.
i am happy thats why i am blogging. =x
shopping with mummy yesterday was fun.
at least, i enjoyed her company.
i can be myself only when with her.
of cos,
with stupid bby too.
i once told a friend of 9 yrs,
that i am myself only with them.
he said something that is quite true,
are u really ur trueself?
yes u are crazy.
but are u letting out all of urself?
as in, u know u still try to stop urself,
at times.
i am not as crazy with them,
as compared when im with bby.LOL( not i say de hor!)
but im thankful too,
at least they stand by me.
i know.
and bby also.
put up with my attitude together with li.
thanks for the tolerance.
i really appreciate it.
ok back to topic.
went to chinatown with mummy.
and i am happy!
cos! i had my watch repair.
and the uncle help me fixed the 2 missing diamonds in my watch,
with a total cost of only $4!
and now the short hand is moving,
and the diamonds are complete.=)
i helped mummy to see her new yr clothes,
and banned her from buying dark shirts.
cos, the thing that come out of our mind(sis and i)
is that daddy will nag. LOL.
believe it or not,
i am especially talkative with her.
how i wish everyday could be like this.(fat hope)
i know, she is getting older.
weaker in some sense.
i really hoped i can spend more time with her,
if i can.
i can sense her loneliness,
ever since xuan left.
what to do? haix.
bought 2 dresses for myself,
and also 3 clothes for daddy.=)
sis came after work.
had dinner together.
its been such a long time since i really sit down,
and chat with them.
i am happy.
cos mummy say,
she can see that im "climbing back to the pier"
but one thing i must really do,
is to curb my temper.
especially at home.
and u noe,
there is always a victim,
which i really feel bad to.
i really do.
i guess i am rather emotional nowadays.
im sick and tired of everything.
but what to do?
thats part and parcels of life.
i just wish to be myself,
i just wish to be a happy lil girl once again.
its time to really sit down,
and start planning for myself.
and i know, i wont regret,
with whatever decisions i made.
cos at least i once tried.
and i have done my best.
ok thats all.
end of updates.

2010-01-14T01:25:00.002+08:00

feels like updating,
so here am i.hahah.
it suddenly occur to me,
that life will change drastically for my family.
mummy is not babysitting anymore,
daddy is not working anymore.
wonders how life will be then.
can see how bored mummy is,
but i dont know how to help.
she wanted to get a job,
but i dont bear leh.
maybe im too used to her presence at home.LOL.
having off tml,
feels like bringing precious out,
but dont know where to go.
i wanna change my phone,
and its very soon.=)
cos my phone, ai ya,
dying soon.=(
its time for me to really think about it ,
i guess.
i miss my sisters a lot.
its been some time since i last saw them,
and i miss bby a lot a lot.
our time cant click.=(
cos we mostly worked night shift.
its been some time since i met besties too.
hopefully we can meet up soon can?
i dont know what to update.
so thats all.

i wish to be out of this circle,
can i?
or show me something different pls?

2010-01-10T18:41:00.005+08:00

judi is a happy lil girl today.LOL
having off today.
wanted to go shopping.
but bby go jb.
sis went back to work.
mummy fall asleep in the afternoon.
so stayed home for the whole day.=(
daddy came home.
woke up,
and surprisingly,
he asked. wanna drive today?
and it also happens that i need not put p plate anymore.
so i tag along.
to return the gas.
drove a short distance from TEFE to batok sec there.
so that daddy can buy some goods.
after that,daddy brought me to the big carpark.
and i drove again!=)
happy.
n i think i drove smoothly today.LOL
learn reverse on the lorry.
driving lorry can be tedious at times.
cos too long n big.LOL
but one thing is,
stupid gear 5 hates me.
always cant go in.
nvm learning that next wk.
and dad say cny still can borrow car,
from regular cust.
which means, i can learn parking!=)
and if i can conquer the stupid lorry,
think car shouldnt be a prob.=x
go visit tortoise today.!=)
happy happy.
on the route from home to TEFE to temple,
oh no. reminds me a lot of stuffs.
but, its all the past.
cos i seldom pass by anymore.
i am going to look forward. not the past can.
i believe we have a better future LOL!
anyway,
all the best to those taking 'o' result tml.
alright. thats all.=)

its always my own thinking,
that always led me in state of confusion.
ai yo~

2010-01-05T00:29:00.003+08:00

i wanted to blog.
but i dont know what to blog.
ok contradicting.
i have off for 3 days this week.
n i m gg to be so bored.
i dont know since when i became a loner.
=x
a fren asked me out to drink just now.
i said i cant drink.
and she said thats sooo not me.LOL
cos the judi she rmb,
is the one who used to drink with her in the midnight?
thats the real judi.LOL
and she was sooo shocked that i changed.=(
well, i also wished to be myself. but i cant la.=(
talking to her reminds me of the past.
a lot a lot.
all those silly things we have done.
im glad she is back.
i love talking to her.=)
there are a lot of times,
i kept to myself,
and feel suffocated.
but well,
i got a great listener at home.
who only ask me to cry loudly. -_-"
yesterday went shopping with bby.
and i loved it!
i had no idea why i was soooo crazy last night.
and v v talkative.
anyway, i must apologise to li n bby,
for being so gl during the previous meet up.
i am not feeling v good.
so sorry.
anyway,
bby n i went to JB.
and surprisingly,
there are no jam at all!
why ah?
everytime i meet him sure jam can! zzzz~
anyway,
bby n i bought a lot of necessity items back home.
contact lens(for sis) conditioner, shampoo facial pads etc etc.
its kind of cheaper seriously.
didnt buy clothes leh.
maybe no new yr mood yet.
we enjoyed carrying buddha leg at the last min.=x
sis is back from tokyo.
but she didnt saw any blings.
which i had no idea why.
so no blings for me=(
i seriously had no idea what to update.
so thats all

2010-01-03T00:45:00.003+08:00

i am here to blog.
HAPPY 2010 everyone.
i believe it will definitely be a better yr,
though i dont really have a good start.
i had no idea why,
been really down nowadays.
everything had been screwed.
my phone is failing me.
daddy shop will be closed by this month,
and he hoped to bring shop's number back home.
rather wierd?
but i understand he need the number to deliver gas.
xuan xuan had left my home.
the last day of 2009.
i knew it,
but still rather shocked.
cos i dunno the exact date.
precious JJ is leaving for childcare soon.=(
my house will be v v v quiet now.
wonder is it good or bad?
i am really v v down.
my beloved guess watch has spoiled.
it happens when i went to replace the batt.
and i guess the person hit it.
and now the "short hand" cant turn.
wtf.
my precious watch.
the one and only watch i loved most.
my phone?
i cant receive or sms ppl.
to certain ppl.
i had no idea why.
ppl complained they did not received my msg.
argh!!!!
anyway,
thanks rae for asking me out.LOL
we went to watch " the 4th kind"
still okok but nt v v nice tt kind.
i sincerely hope.
luck is back to me.
i need good good luck now!!!
i want no more troubles.
i want to be happy.
i am sure i can do it.
i dont know what to blog.
so thats it.
a month more to a yr?
seems long but its short.
so near yet so far?
ok end of randomness

2009-12-30T14:24:00.005+08:00

tml is the last day of the year.
after that will be a brand new start.....
decided to blog today cos i doubt i have any time to do so tml.
well, whats there to blog anyway? no idea.=x
my precious voice seems to worsen.
not getting any better.
ever since i gotten high fever.=(
daddy shop will be closing down exactly a month later.
had no idea what will happen next,
seriously.
a shop that seen all of us grown up?
that brought us lots of laughter?
gonna missed YHL alot.
and because of the festive season,
i have been rather busy with work.
that i missed lots of meeting with besties.
jas say will meet me at 2011.LOL
but well,
i know they dont mean it.
they sure missed me a lot like i do. hahahah.
well, you must know,
i dont want it that way too.

2009,
i guessed a lot of things have been happening in this one year.
a lot a lot.
there are a lot of stuffs that i still need to learn.
there are a lot of things i need to adapt.
within this one yr,
i changed a lot.
of cos, with "their" control too.
i cant drink as and when i like,
like i used to.
i cant do this and that,
if not i will get punished.
but well, they still gave me a lot of freedom.
anyway, i am really grateful to sf.
cos i learnt really a lot from him...
there are times,
when i feel like putting down everything.
but because i am soft hearted,
i cant bear to.=(
someone tell me,
my temper have been really bad lately.
and another will say,
now then u know.
well, i really dont mean it though.
and i hate having dispute because of something.
i really really hate that..
there are a lot of things running in my mind right now...
haix~
just hope everything will be over soon.
but well,
i need time.
just give me time. and i will be fine..
and with the pillar support of bby n fam,
im sure i can do it.=)
ok thats all.

so,
whats my resolution for next year?
that is to be a happy lil girl once again.
and also to slim down.
i wanted to study.
but i need approval.=(
i hope everything will goes smoothly next year!!!=)
leave behind my past and walk towards the future!
(thats my belief for years can!)
live my life fruitfully!=)
and i always believe,
i reap what i sow.

2009-12-25T13:48:00.003+08:00

MERRY CHIRSTMAS everyone!=)
this will be a short post.
will be back soon.
maybe 31st dec?LOL
waiting for some pics to be uploaded.
like christmas countdown.
there are no festive mood for xmas this yr.
i have been sick for the past few days.
having high fever like in the middle of the night?
4 am plus.
shivering and having a serious headache.
having difficulty to sleep.
and feeling giddy.
that sucks.
its saddening how my market dont sell porridge when i feel like eating.
only had 1 meal a day for yesterday and the day before?
totally no appetite.
hope can slim down.LOL
went to work in the night.
finally recovered.
from fever.
wonder is it because of the method sf teach me?=)
supposedly having off yesterday.
but since im meeting the usual ones at marina,
and i supposed it will be v v busy,
i went back to work.
"free labour" LOL.
but its ok la.
super duper busy last night.
but its a good thing deifinitely.
went to fetch bby from work.
and we went dating at town.
afterwhich,
we decided to go diao diao.
and we diao 3 doraemons 1 pooh and 1 bear bear back home.
with a total of 15 bucks though. hahaha.
after work,
jeff drove us to dempsey.
going there reminds me of....
cos i think so far only he brought me there? LOL=x
we went harris bar to chill.
i had fun there.
playing the frog game LOL.
back to my hse mac at 2 plus.
home sweet home at 4 plus.
now that fever has gone,
flu came to visit me.
sore throat has yet to be bettter.
everyone who called will ask,
what happen to ur voice?=(
pls pray.
that cough dont come.
i hate that.
especially being accompanied by asthma.
alright thats all!=)

2009-12-18T21:45:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 30 BIRTHDAY TO BRO!
i still remember can!
parents asked, whose present i bought.
why i buy a cake.
wah lao! machiam my bro i give birth one can!=x
no la. is i got heart.LOL
how can i forget?
my dearest bro.
who helped me a lot can!
i dont know what to blog.
brain clogged.
problems after problems.
just hope everything will goes smoothly now.
working mostly morn till mon.
wont be going online very late nowadays.
so if gt fate,
see k on 22 ba!
22 is dong zhi!
tang yuan!=)
but...
ai ya let fate decide....

sometimes i wonder,
why should i care when u dont?
haix~
dont know what im thinking.
its going round the circle once again.
dont wish to think anything else right now.

will u standby me like i did?

my precious...

my trip...

HJM's 21st...

at shan place also must work abit ok! LOL
nah... looking at schedules.

-i miss those days =(

i think i look innocent LOL

hjm and i...

this shows i help out too ok!!!

the one behinds always act young.
just because they are months younger LOL

Blackie's 21st...

2009-12-17T21:34:00.001+08:00

back to blog.
blogger doesnt allow me to upload photos yet.
a lot of things have been happening recently.
be it good or bad.
most of the things,
are for me to adapt.
hard lesson learnt.
well, these are parts and parcels of life anyway.
these will makes me even stronger i believe.
have been talking to k recently,
should say in msn,
he is coming online more often nowadays.
talking to him makes me realised how much i have changes,
perhaps, over this 1 yr.
well, people do changes.
at least i did not change for the worse right?
but im glad things are going well for him too.=)
things are not going smoothly for me this yr.
not only me,
most of my friends too.
just like.....
no more heart attacks for me pls.
just hope this year will end soon!
next year will be a better year!=)
my house god have been sent for "refurnishing"
and is back home last night.
family are all amazed by sf work.
cos he looks soooo new.(like newly bought)
oh yes.
tml is my dearest brother bdae!
HAPPY 30th BDAE!
time to find a gf and get married soon!
thats mummy's hope.=x
at the same time i will have my own room!=)
working mostly night shift next week.
will be working during christmas day!=)
ok thats all for my post.

2009-12-07T21:47:00.003+08:00

i will be back... with photos...
i upload le leh.
but blogger dont let me upload photos.
blogger hate me.LOL
i am having my off days soon.=)
i got the urge to update.
but i dont know what to update.
my blog is getting more and more boring.
ai yo how ar?=x
i feel that i am getting older.
whole body ache.
its funny how mummy and i stick "koh yo por"
for each other.
and i had 4 on my body.=(
i loved yesterday.
cos i worked morning.
and i went home for dinner after sooooooo long.
and i love drinking mummy soup and eating the fish.
(i am a fish lover LOL)
but i gt a bad digestive system.omg.
imagine the things i vomitted at night was what i eat in the morning.
ok a lil disgusting.LOL
it seems really really long of not having dinner at home
cos usually even if morn shift i will go out after work.
and mummy had a golden rule.
no cooking on weekends.
thats why ar!!!!
whats more to update?
2009 is finally ending soon!
oh no.
gettting older once again.
how time flies.
ok la. really nothing to update.
will post when blogger allows me to upload photos.

2009-12-06T23:30:00.002+08:00

i am back with updates.
am not gonna neglect here anymore.
(err...hopefully)
so what have been happening for the past week?
hmmm~
cousin wedding on the fri.
had my off day on thurs and fri.
dating with bby after her work on thurs.=)
finally met her after sooooo long.
if its 17 days of not seeing prawn,
that will be almost 20 days of not seeing bby=(
anyway,
we went to caught diao diao.
my elmo.=)
errr.... with help though.
LOL. must thanks the mr nice guy there.
forever happy with bby around.LOL

friday leh.
cousin wedding
sis took leave.
we had our breakfast tgt with 3cousins.
and an idiotic cockroach pass by my leg.
omg! damn disgusting can!
it touched me!
i didnt noe its cockroach til i look down.
can i chop my leg off?
eeeee yer....
went home.
napped a lil.
went batok.=)
nth much to comment though.LOL
and home to prepare.
mummy keep nagging.
come home early.
you took a long time to make up.=x
and i was telling them.
v long nv attend such occasion le.=(
*choy* was what they say.LOL
but sad thing was,
cant club with MOs after wedding dinner.=(
cos u noe. i cant drink. haix~~~~ no fun no fun.
bro and i ganged up against sis.
ok bad of us.
but well! we cant stand her la.
of not bringing keys out and waking us up in the middle of the night.

sat?
work morn.
sf came my house while im working.
like 12 plus?
cos he wanted to see smth.
thn shun bian helped us see fs.
which means,
the setting of my room changed again.
back to parallel.
no more fighting of me and sis.
but the parallel is the other way of parallel.
our legs are facing the window now.
but.
it looked smaller.
quite cramp la.
but no choice.
living room and bro room looked smaller too.
ai yo~
no choice.
supposedly to go k with pts and prawn.
at night.
but i was sooo tired.
that i woke up at 11 plus.
feeling giddy and tired.
so ended up not going.
had no idea why,
have been feeling giddy ever since i came home.
sweets shall be my best friend now.
and coffee?
well,
if there are kind souls bringing me coffee everyday jiu hao.
LOL! wishful thinking.
cos coffee is my best friend nowadays.
if not i will go fishing.

oh ya,
whats for christmas?
working is a confirmed thing.
but whats next?
dating with bby perhaps.LOL
there are things i wanna get.
any kind souls out there?
a smaller laptop for me.
cos i need lighter laptop.
cos i put my laptop in my bag.
and now,
its killing me.
cos my neck is breaking.seriously.
shoulder aching nowadays.
need a massage badly=(
i saw a cute tortoise at sf.
which kind soul wanna get it for me?
LOL!
u noe im a tortoise lover. hahah.
really v cute leh.
and also i like the adidas watch.
hahaha. bhb.
im just saying what i like la.LOL
alright.
no more long post.
off i go.
3 off days this week.
who wanna date me out on thurs and fri?
if not im gonna rot at home.
oh so sianz.
sun booked.=x
ok thats all.

2009-11-27T12:38:00.002+08:00

im finally back here.
have been rather busy,
or lazy to update my blog.
im back from my short break.
i thought,
having this short break,
could let me put down "this" and "that",
at least for a short moment.
but i realised i couldnt.=(
no big deal anyway.
problems have been arising,
not to me,
but its actually affecting me badly.
haix~
i just hope,
this problems will resolved soon.
if not im the one who will go crazy.
cant help but feel worried.
cant do anything about it though,
can only wait and see.

anyway,
no much pics for my trip leh.
cos all about food.
and i gained f***ing 5 kg in 6 days.
nb. hw scary it is.
i am gg to exercise and go on diet once again.
pls kill me.
i cant accept this fact.
sis say cos i have been eating v lil.
and when i went for this trip,
i will eat and eat.
thats why gets fat easily.
but nvm,
i am a "balloon"
pump in air easily,
but pump out easily too.

the weather is diff from here.
10 deg there.
so cooling,
feel so hot when i touched down in spore.LOL
i wish i could stay there.
they have a lot of blings.
oh my god.
i feel like bringing all home can.
imagine a model ferrari car full of blings?
imagine a scooter full of blings?
thats sooo cool!
but couldnt take photos.=(
language is a lil prob.
they dont really understand eng.
but luckily we are still able to communicate.
the thing about free and easy,
is to plan.
its full of adventures.
i loved it!
though mummy dont.
cos she's used to tours.
they have sooo many subways there.
its just like LRT and MRT.
taking LRT from hotel to main stop before taking MRT.
but its v complicated la.
but now, i guessed im able to walk freely now.hahaha.

having this short break,
makes me have more time with mummy.
when i lied on her shoulder the other day,
makes me feel the distance.
its nt as close as we used to be anymore.
i realised i neglected her la.
and she hinted me also.hahha.
" ai ya, when u reached spore also no time for me."
"since when will you go home right after work? dont say night shift."
even u off also complained at home v boring.
oops. i feel so bad la.
gonna spent more time with her.
if can.
she is my best friend leh.
though i always threw tantrum,
but i still love her ok.LOL

my cute mummy took neoprints with me.
but my hse gt no scanner.
shall get ppl to help me thn blog.
LOL.
ok la. long post.
upload my food photos,
consolidate and post soon.

2009-11-11T12:01:00.005+08:00

judi 错怪好人了。
i supposed its the uncle beside me in the bus 67 picked up my phone.
but he did not know how to use the phone.
and he got hearing problem.
so he hang up my call.
only today, his son came to visit him,
then his son call my house.
told my mum about it.
and tadah,
he will sent my phone to my house later.
he lives in cck btw.
THANK GOD!
and i am gg to give him a red packet later.=D
cos my phone got some memories that i feel like cherishing.
though i wanted to change my phone.
but still can keep for mummy .
whats meant to be mine will be mine.
thats what i always believe.
cursed the wrong person.
*took back my words*
mummy always say.
should curb my temper la. LOL
off today.
but gg meeting later.
cant bring JJ out.=(
i missed my sisters again!!!
i am myself only when i am with them.
only they know what i meant.
alright thats all.
LASTLY,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RAE!
hmmm,
just feel like saying,
whatever it is,
its all in the past.
be it good or bad.
there is no need for any apologies.
cos it takes 2 hands to clap.
im at fault too.
but still,
its all in the past now.=)
and you know,
we walk our own way now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MAX TOO!=)
and also HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOYLN!=)

2009-11-10T10:51:00.001+08:00

yesterday was supposed to be a happy day.
cos i finally met up sisters after sooooo long.
havent been meeting them for a week can!
we went shopping at bugis.
and we took photos.
they never failed to make me laugh.
seriously enjoyed myself la.
but,
my precious phone.
it actually gone crazy in the morning.
and went missing in the night.=(
haix.
damn the person who took my phone.
i called a few times,
no answer,
and hang my call subsequently.
though i have the thought of changing phone,
but mummy's phone also got prob.
so im thinking of leaving this to her la.
zzzz~
i think i dropped it in the bus.
seldom lost my phone de leh.
damn careless.zzz~
gonna get a sim card replacement later.
if not v troublesome.
i need my phone to contact ppl la.
now with a lost phone,
i got soooo many things i wanna buy.
a new phone, a new laptop(the current one are too heavy to bring to work)
who wanna sponsor me?=(
anyway,
im going for a short break next week.
spending some time with mummy before she complained.
broke la!
so pls dont miss me. thats all for my post.

2009-11-05T19:34:00.009+08:00

here to blog.
lazy plus busy.
therefore lack of posts.
what to update?
31st oct.
halloween night.
genia's 21st.
busy busy day.
but i enjoyed,
in regards of work and party.
and we sat soo hoon's car!
for the v v 1st time.=)
the theme was pink,
and everyone was sooo on.
almost all wore pink.
cool.
genia had a dog,
called puffy.
so cute can!
but still, i am scared.=x
rushed home at 10 plus.
guessed i missed out the fun after that =(
no choice.
must pray.

1st nov.
i thought all i get was disappointment.
but still,
u tried ur best.
well,nothing much to comment anyway.=)
just a happy lil girl.=x
but fever when got home la!=(
suddenly a rise of 38.7 deg when i woke up from nap.
and subsidised only on tues.

yesterday was a very very busy day for me.
reached sf hse at 12 plus.
got a lot of stuffs to do.
that i stayed over at his hse.
slept only at 3plus.
and shifu hse has no mattress.
got.but v thin.
so practically,
one of the disciple and i were sleeping on the floor.
backache.=x
but ok la. i strong.LOL
v v busy day.
cos at night must pray ti gong also.
running about the whole day.
tired and shag la.
got back to own hse only at 6 plus today.
thanks to mummy,
cos she brought my clothes in the morning,
so that i can changed a new one.
thanks to sf,
for guiding me patiently,
and the seniors for taking care of me.
often wonder,
what would i be without him?
he understand me more than my dad can!=x
anyway,
i learned a lot in this big day.
ok thats all.

2009-10-28T00:07:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HJM!!!
28 oct.
my fave number of the day.
and also hao jie mei, soo hoon birthday!
another old woman! oops.=x
i really enjoyed myself today.
though steamboat is a lil troublesome,
but i loved the laughter we share.
the way we play!=)
i loved the way we are afraid of cats.=x
some of us though.LOL.
i loved our zi pai moments.
now i missed the past.=(
though there are always quarrell,etc,
but its still fun with them la!
8 yrs of friend ok?!
still remember how we used to study tgt,
via sms.=x
but thats when exams are coming la!
sec sch times are all abt play.=x
the most memorable moment of cos!
shall upload our pics when genia upload!
upcoming bdae.
genia's. on the 31st.
oh my god.
the theme is pink.
tell me where to find pink clothes.=x
its going nov soon.
and it will be end of this yr sooner or later.
how times flies can!

some of the pics to be uploaded.
me and my "dearest sia" LOL!
im her alarm clock ok!
though she always waste my effort=(

2009-10-22T13:13:00.009+08:00

im back!
with photos=)
able to update,
cos i got my off.=)
u noe ar. lazy me.=x
had a quite busy weekends.
but well! its fun and worth it though.
17 oct is bestie gin's bdae.
met bby at west mall after work.
and awhile later,
BY came.
and off we went for gin's party.
thanks bby,
for guiding us.
cos we dunno whr to alight.
thanks to gin's sis and bf for sending us home too.=)
overall,its fun.
besties 21st are all over now.=)

on the 18,
as usual,
worked morning.
and,
it's sia's bdae.=)
work was rather ok,
met up with those pt who did not work that day,
and off we went to pasir ris,
sia's chalet.
baby cousin was there too=)
cos i got to noe sia thru baby to be exact.
retro was the theme.
however,
i guessed we are the only ones who dressed up.
but overall,
its a nice experience and its fun too!=)
though sia always bully me,
and always ask for morning call,
well im ms nice,
i forgive her,
and im glad she had a blessed birthday! =)
home sweet home at 1 plus,
cos working morn shift.

thanks to brother f for the morning call.
to think i need that,
when i am always the one givin morn call,
thanks to sia.LOL
well,
nothing much has changed for my life.
i am still the old judi,
nothing much happens.=( LOL
the only thing diff is i went for a check up before work.
and what the doc says actually worries me can!
just pray hard i will be fine,
thats all.
you know i always dont have a good health.
anyway,
my sisters keeper is up!
i want to see it badly!
this book, written by jodi picout,
is my fav!
u know i hate reading.
but this book inspired me.
thanks to sister joey ong.
alright,
a boring post.
pictures shall spell eveyrthing.

17 oct, gin's 21st....

18 oct, sia's 21st...

2009-10-17T00:00:00.000+08:00

judi is here to blog.
but this will be a very short post,
will continued after bestie's party.
judi just wanna wish 3 people a very happy birthday,
mr vio, ginny and alvin.
just wanna wish ginny a very happy 21st birthday!
welcome to the adulthood my dear girl.
remember the magic word,
we want you to be happy.
no more tears,
no more sadness.
stay happy!
crappy ginny rmb? =)
and to mr vio,
威，生日快乐。
是时候长大了哦！
希望你一切都还好，
事事顺利。=）
and lastly,
to alvin,my pt.
though you are not here with us,
but still,
hope everything goes smoothly for you.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!=D

2009-10-12T20:13:00.005+08:00

judi is a happy lil girl today.
cos she went home for dinner.
and mummy cooked her favourite 四川菜汤。
好久好久没吃妈妈煮的菜了！！！！
even sis is shocked that i went home early.=x
in the morning,
she thought she will be late,
due to the traffic jam,
but she met the nice uncle.
who always drove fast.
and as usual,
he dropped me off near the flyer,
cos he went to the toilet.LOL
and judi is happy,
cos her precious made her smile.=)
shall post our picture later.
every small little things are enough to make judi happy for the whole day.
and judi is also happy,
cos daddy let her drove the lorry after sooooooo long.
though only a short distance,
but she is happy.
and daddy promised to let her drive during weekends.
provided she is free=x
judi also went to watch movie with hubby,
on a fine saturday.
surrogates.
its damn nice.
havent been watching movies can!
though the person beside us made us feel like vomitting.=(,
she managed to enjoy the movie.
alright,
thats all for my updates.=D
and now,
judi hoped he is free from all troubles.=)

2009-10-09T12:14:00.009+08:00

having my off days today and tomorrow!=)
HAPPY BIRTHDAy to cousin junsheng.
yesterday was baby JJ.
got one pic took with him when i woke up!
xia si ni men la!
cos without make up.
thn i look damn pale.
planning to go in today.
to meet him.
but our schedule dont clicked.
so... forget it.=(
no fate i guessed.LOL
tml?
plans cancelled too.
planned to go in with alice n nessa.
but nessa teaching his bro 'n'.
so bo bian.
now, dont know what to do during my off days.LOL!
later gg chunhow's 21st.
whats next?
no idea.
met up with sisters a few days ago.
photos to be up soon!=)
8 more days to gin's bdae,
9 more to sia's.
nothing to update.
a boring blog.
i am freaking lethargic can!
no idea why la.
whole body ache.
and the contractors refused to let me sleep during my off days.
they loved to knock when i having off days.
and its true!
cos mummy also find this way!
like they wont knock when im working.
zzz~
ok photos with sisters to be up~=)

see how pale i look.=x

2009-10-04T21:14:00.009+08:00

finally something to post.
03 oct is my loves.
i am sure that is gin and by's love too!=)
but i am guilty la.
cos i actually planned.
to go shi fu house after work.
before meeting them for dinner.
but i didnt know.
shi fu dragged my time.
he talked for almost 4 hours.
sounds exaggerating but thats true.
and make me feel sooooo hungry.
but still,
i met them up at 10 plus.
and then,
its reminicising our childhood time!=)
we played bubbles,
we played candles.
gin played her swing.
a very happy moment for us.
put away all our stressful moments and just,
PLAY!=)
went home at 12 plus.
get changed and out again.
changed to home clothes of course.
meet up with special someone.=x
its a girl though.
to do something memorable!
LOL!
went home at 2plus.
woken up by sms at 6 when i can sleep 15-30 mins longer.=(
its ok actually.=x
more photos to be up..
F1 day 2 and 03 oct.=)

binn yi ginny and judi

our bubbles~=)

- i love heart-shape candleS!=D

-judi at work

- setting up for work

2009-10-01T00:08:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SAIFUDDIN!=)
his turn to the adulthood.
think he is in NS now?LOL
hmmm~ i dont know what to update.
i think my hair is really short now.
look so like sis can!
cut one inch of it!
but i think i look energetic now.=x
had double eyelid today AGAIN!
one big one small eye.
damn sad~
today had a treat from aunty at souvenior shop.
the food she cook is really nice!=)
tml is children day!
i am having off tml and friday!=)
going shi fu hse after that.
meeting bby on fri!
HAPPY!=)
having next off on next fri and sat!
looking forward.=x
cos chun how's bdae on fri,
going JB on sat.
ok la. dont know what to update.

2009-09-29T01:51:00.006+08:00

sis is backed!
seriously,
havent been seeing her for such a longg time!
miss her can!
though i enjoyed my freedom without her!
today,
ai wei and i helped to make sia look pretty!
cos she is jealous of my double eyelid!LOL!=x
you know,
when i dont have enough sleep,
i will have double eyelid on one eye.
and i will have "one big one small" eye.
and he will insist that its my sleeping posture caused that!=(
anyway,
we helped sia to make her eyes look bigger.
and put my eyeliner on.
and she looks sooo pretty!
alright, its the eyes that looks pretty=x
today is 28th.
i had no idea why im happy.
maybe cos its my fav number.=)
free dinner on wed.
cos i helped aunty buy toto and she won.=x
photos shall speak everything.
still gt photos of me and bby.
going k that time!=)
dating again on fri!=)
actually meeting on thurs de.
too bad must go shi fu house.
working this weekend.
so cannot meet her too!
ok.
time checked. 205 am
hope im going to have a good sleep later on!

2009-09-27T23:59:00.006+08:00

我回来了。
近来，为了F1，
为了工作，
加上懒惰。
所以变成很忙。
F1，
也许没什么兴趣，
觉得有点无聊。
不过，
一个新的体验。
上班前的那些checks,
有点麻烦。
不过，没办法。
安全措施嘛！

今天，
休息。
和妈咪到JB，
搬月饼=x
每年一定要的。
哈哈哈！
有点内疚，
尤其是妈咪说，
以为你忘了我了。
因为，很忙。
有时作晚班，
不能回家吃晚餐。
昨早班，
就会放工和朋友出门。
惟有off day，
不过她也很忙。
而且！她也常说我很爱粘她！
跟她出门很好玩。
因为，她会帮我选衣服。=x
她很讲究潮流的ok！哈哈哈
我们到了CS，
吃了早餐，
去Holiday plaza。
其实，我们只懂这两个地方。=x
到了holiday plaza，
便去剪头发。
头发太长了。=x
过后就去shopping。
这样，我们的一天就过了。
其实有恐惧感，
但是，
我相信我自己，
也相信你。=）

我很开心。。。
因为姐姐今天半夜一点多回来。
可是我很生气。
因为，
她陵晨3点多吵醒我！
每次都这样！
真是又爱又恨。

im back.
really busy.
due to F1.
plus work.
plus laziness.
perhaps, im not into F1.
so i find it boring.
but its a new experience to me.
the security checks arereally troublesome too.

went in to JB with mummy today.
as usual,
we went to buy mooncakes.
a lil guilty.
when mummy say.
i thought you forget me.
and i told her.
cos u find me v sticky in the past.LOL
no choice.
working night makes me having lesser time with her.
having lesser dinner tgt.
and working morning?
i will go out with friends after work.
off day?well she will be busy.
i love going out with mummy.
cos fashionable mummy,
will help me choose clothes.lolx.
CS and holiday plaza are the only places we know.
and we had our hair cut at holiday plaza,
following our shopping.
thats all.=)
actually had my phobia.
but well,
i have faith in myself.=x LOL
and i trust you....

im happy.
cos sis is coming back today, at 1am.
but im angry,
cos she woke me up at 3plus am last night.
she always do that to me!!!
and once again.
its my fave number of the day again!
28, my lucky number!=)
and also,
provided you remember....

aT WORK....

-upsize for you sir?
looks like some crew selling mac can!=x

-testing cams...

- us with our passes....

-The DMs with kyle...

-act tourist...

UNGLAM PICS during BGM.....

-YEC members...

-big grp...

2009-09-20T21:20:00.007+08:00

20 09 2009.
cool~
judi is a happy girl today.
because she saw sis online.
that irritating girl.
though we always fight and quarell,
i still loved her.
and she is so nice today.
out of sudden.
cos she's bored.
so she bothered to explain stuffs to me.
usually she would say,
cant you check yourself?
why are u so stupid?LOL!
and we gt a WONDERFUL nickname for each other.
she's coming back on the 29th!
i was saying yay!
cos 9 more days to enjoy my freedom.
she tot i missed her.=x
actually i do ar.
i missed someone beating me up in her sleep.=x
someone scolding me while my alarm rings,
and i let it snooze.

i am just so happy.
and i dont know why.
its been for days.
keep it up.=)
few more days to F1.
kind of excited.=x
for no reason.
you know, i dont do things for reasons.=x
work is busy today,
but i loved it.=x
i am happy once again,
cos gg dating with bby tml.=)
ok,
thats all for my post! =D

just a random thought,
its easy to make me happy,
make me touched,
and make me smile.
its a matter of how,
and whether you put in any effort.=)

AND YES!
IDIOTIC SW!
stop trying to hurt my friend ok!
please go and think about yourself!
you arent better!
who is the one who started all this?
who is the one who hurt her?
how dare you comment!!!!
TRY TO DO THAT AGAIN,
WE SHALL SEE WHAT WILL HAPPEN NEXT!
i will never allow people to bully my friend!
you may act like an angel,
but not to US!

2009-09-18T14:27:00.004+08:00

off day today.
raining right now,
cant go anywhere.=(
plan to make cheesecake.
but lazy to get ingredients.
no one at home.
boring.
anyway,
"dear" and hairul have passed their exams,
and grad successfully!
happy for them!=)
i am so bored.
and i dont know what to update.
today is the last day.=)
good good.
anyway,
hope everything goes well for bby.
no more moody her.
hope she is happy now!=)
hope all our funny feeling goes off can!
and,
all the best to blackie,
who is having her exams today.
meeting besties soon!
HAPPY!
ok la.
boring blog.
nothing to update.
thats all.

2009-09-17T11:49:00.004+08:00

its the 17th.
exactly one more month to bestie bdae!
and also mr vio's.
looking forward to bestie's party soon!=)
but needa rush home earli to pray!=(
its ok! hope she will enjoy herself to the fullest that day!
time passes fast.
so 1 month will pass fast too!
as usual,
have been working night shift nowadays.
back to work on weekends.
off next sunday!=)
maybe going JB next sunday with mummy!=)
work is still alright for me,
as i said,
there are a lot of things for me to learn.
thats a good thing actually.=x
and i want to learn new languages can!
i wanna learn malay! jap and korean!=)
who wanna teach me? lolx.
7th month is over soon!
yippee! like so finally.
cos "they" wouldn't bother me again.
you wouldnt know how it feels,
unless you experienced yourself.
the feeling of almost going crazy.
and almost suffering from depression.
well thats life.
ms ong is off for hols.
to HK.
gonna missed her.
sis is off to LA.
brother is back from thailand.
and i might be going to thailand too!=)
10 dec to 12 dec.
haven book yet.
maybe going with genia jie ning and soo hoon onli.
hope blackie can go.
hope all seventh can go.=)
life resumes.
looking forward to next dating with bby!=)

2009-09-14T16:48:00.006+08:00

最经常作晚班，
到家都12点多了。
所以没时间update。
昨天和今天休息。
拜五休息，
拜六礼拜会去做工。
其实，也没什么特别的。
姐姐出国公干，
哥哥出国当兵。
剩下我。
这几天，
哥哥不在。
我就睡他房间。
真开心。
因为他房间比较大，
又睡大床。
真享受。
而且他房间没我房间热。
工作，一切都还好。
还是有许多要学习的吧。
昨天和老公约会。
非常开心。
好久没这样了。
也和她聊了许多。
始终还是她最了解我。
我想，她也很开心吧？
因为，傻傻的我，
学了他们，
懂得逗她笑。=x
好吧。
不懂要写什么了。

im back again~
have been working night shifts.
no time to update blog,
let alone uploading pics.
having my offs yesterday and today.
next off on friday,
and gg work on weekends.
nothing much to update.
sis went for business trip,
bro went for reservice.
left me with parents.
have been sleeping in bro's room while he's away.
shiok.
cos his room is big,
at least bigger than mine.
i loved his big bed!=x
and his room is windy,
not as hot as mine.
work is rather ok for me,
there are a lot for me to learn,
thats what i feel personally.
dating with hubby yesterday was simply great!
simply enjoyed!
havent have a good laugh!
and she is happy too!
cos i made her laugh.
i learnt their skills. oops.
alright,
thats all for my update.

just a random tot.
just because im being nice,
doesnt mean im one to be trifled with.
its just that i dont want to make matter worse.
given my pattern in the past,
i would definitely flare straight back.
theres a limit to everything.
better pray hard that i dont flare up,
because one day if i do,
god bless you.

我不应该在疑神疑鬼了。=x
可是，
除了担心，
也不能做什么了。
只能等待。
希望你一切都好。

2009-09-08T22:38:00.004+08:00

yesterday was my sister's ai li's bdae!
ms ong ai li! welcome to the 2 headed world!=x
all i wanted to say was,
im really sorry,
wasnt myself,
and forgot to bring those important stuffs,
resulting the lateness in us,
cos must redo.
making you angry,
wasnt what we want.
as what i have been emphasizing,
all we want was you to be happy.
when you teared,
we arent feeling better.
but well,
its all over.
im glad you still enjoyed in the end!
better loved the present we gave!
cos its alll our hardwork....

im having my off yesterday!
for the sake of li.
well,its worth it.
cos a lot of things happened within one day,
be it good or bad.
i went to batok,
went to visit my tortoise,
went to clementi,
get the white cloths,
went home,
touched up the presents,
rushed to town,
to finish up everything.
i got to know something bad.
and it hurts me badly.
but well,
everything is ok now,
not going to talk about it.
all i wanted to say,
is thank you to hubby, ai li and ru.
for being my listening ear,
being there when i needed you guys most.
ru is leaving for malacca tml.
for her study trip.
hope she enjoyed.
those enlisted in army is having their POP　today.
all the best to them.

昨天，到了batok找了他们，
也和老大聊了很久，
也知道了许多事。
固执得我，
也装着落无启事，
其实内心，很心痛。
不知你，怎么了。
不知你，发生了什么事。
内心很混乱。
也觉得自己，很失败。
什么都不知道。
当时，真的觉得手足无策。
除了担心，也不能做什么。
不过，现在，
知道你没事，
真的放心多了。
始终还是得面对这个问题的。
至少，你肯回我，
说你没事。。
一切都值得。

2009-09-06T22:44:00.005+08:00

我终于回来了。
最近有点小忙，
便忽略了这里。
不过，过了这一段日子，
我便没那么忙了。
但愿如此。
哈哈哈！

这星期，
好像是小强日。
吓死人。
星期五，
在拉厕纸时，
便跑出一只蟑螂！
认识我的人，
知道我除了怕猫怕狗以外，
最怕就是蟑螂和壁虎了！！！
真是一大清早6点多，
就能听到我刮理刮叫了！！
叫妈妈快点抓蟑螂！！！！
今天，
更糟糕！！！
尽然在我first aid 包包里
看到一只蟑螂！！！
我那被吓倒的画面真是经典到~
连摄影师都拍到了！！
=（
因为有CC event，
所以会有摄影师。

今天，我和青年团的人，
一起坐船去龟署岛。
我们在船上举办活动。
好久好久没回CC了。
也好久好久没见到青年团的朋友们了。
对啦~我是青年团的会员。=x
今天其实蛮好玩的。
又能看见我亲爱的乌龟，
又在那许愿，
有和朋友们一起。
好久好久没那么轻松了。
过后，
便约了老公，
去爱莉的教堂给她一份惊喜。
因为她明天生日。
我们有个约定。
要陪寿星婆庆祝三天。
昨天我们也出门了。
一起到bukit batok 吃早餐。=）
我要减肥啦！=（
对了，本小姐电话发神经了。
不是收不到人家的简讯，
就是人家收不到我的简讯。
有什么重要的事，
最好是打给我。=）
好吧。
让照片告诉一切。

haven been updating for soo long.
here i am.=)
after this period.
i will be less busy.
hopefully.lolx!

it seems like a cockroach day for me this week.=(
just last friday,
i was about to pull out some toilet paper in the bathroom,
a cockroach came out.
those who knows me,
will know that other than cats and dogs,
im damn afraid of cockroach and lizards.
cockroach really scare the hell out of me,
and screamed in the morning as early as 630am.
screamed for mummy to catch it for me!!!!
its even worse for today.
i opened my first aid bag today,
and saw a live cockroach inside!
oh my god!!!!
immediately throw the bag away from me!
the scenerio is sooo damn classic!
that the photographer managed to snap it down!
oh yes,
cos we have an event,
thats why theres a photographer.

today,
i went to kusu island with my btcc yec members.
for our BGM.
for those who dont know,
its bi general meeting.
an election for new members.
its been some time since i went back to CC.
been some time since i last saw my members.
i had fun today.
finally let my hair down for a day.
after the event,
i went to ai li's church to give her surprise together with hubby.
we promised to cele 3 days in a row with any birthday girl.
anyway its time for me to slim down.
alright,
photos shall speak a thousand words.
anyway,
my phone has got problem!=(
some complained they couldnt received my sms.
or i did not received theirs.
so if any impt stuffs,
try to call me ok?=)
想念，往往是一件很痛苦的事。
我很自私，
我只想要我自己快乐。=）

2009-08-27T13:18:00.005+08:00

最近老是神经兮兮，
情绪反反复复。
再将下去，
我快疯了。。。
真是一年比一年遭，
可是，又有谁能体会?
家人都不谅解，何况朋友呢？
他们，只会觉得我蛮不讲理。
这也不是我要的阿！
我要的是一份鼓励，
一份拥抱。
那就足够了。=）

昨晚，
放工后，
到imm meet bestie。
大家都正穿白色，
跟他们在一起，
我总是感到很轻松。
也许因为大家都是傻傻的吧？阿哈哈！
不过说实在的，
真的很感谢他们的陪伴。
虽然大家各忙各的，
但是，
我们并没放弃彼此。。。
因为，
大家都认为，
没人应该放弃对方。
我们的敏仪“升值”啦！
变成幼稚园的校长！
真以她为荣！=）
还记得小时候，
常常说她是我们的校长，
因为，她常常对我们蛮严的！哈哈哈！

明天就是“她”的生日了。
真的只希望她快乐。
知道我们永远等着她回来。
也希望她，
能快快乐乐的过生活。

having serious moodswings once again.
going crazy, suffering from depression soon.
well,
who will understands?
not even my family, or friends.
all will think im being hot tempered.
its getting serious as years goes by.
i need shi fu!=(
all i need now,
is an encouragement, a broad shoulder and a warm warm hug.

met up with besties after work.
having crazy laughters as usual.
did silly stuffs.
maybe cos we are all sillies.=x
and coincidentally, all wore white.
hahah.
always feel relaxed while meeting them.
they are the one,
who never gave up on me.
bring me back when i drifted away.
cos we all believe,
no one should ever give up on each other.
by got "promoted"!
she's now a principal in the childcare!
cool!
congrats!
feel proud of her!
still remember how we teased at her when we were young.
she's our principal.
cos she's always strict at us.

tml...
is "her" birthday.
all of us missed her alot,
yet she chose to avoid,
chose to go missing.
how to contact in this case?
wish to wish her a very happy birthday,
hoping she will be happy always.
and once again,
tml is my fav number of the day!=)

2009-08-24T21:17:00.005+08:00

突然好怀念，
上学读书的日子，
当看到朋友们，
读书准备考试时，
不仅怀念毕业之前的日子，
那些不眠不夜，
而咖啡是最好朋友的日子。
那些读到快发疯，
一个月前就闭关修炼的日子。
那些考试之前，
找点到学校和朋友温习的日子。
好怀念考试的时候。哈哈哈
虽然很讨厌读书，
可是回想时，
还是蛮想念的勒！
工作没什么变化，
霞小妹星期三就回来了！
我们的电话费应该会爆吧！
因为要sms谈工作的事情啊！
她好像在那争取很多经验。
不错哦！哈哈哈！
过不久，
好像就是换我们的牛哥去成都了。哈哈哈！
今天，突然有两个part timer 生病不能来。
真糟糕！
终于明白霞小妹的心情了！哈哈哈！
因为！很不容易找人代替勒！
咳~
而且两个都是晚班的！啊~~~~
schedule真的很不容易plan。
尤其是当每天有人零时不能来！！！
霞小妹快快回来啊！哈哈哈！
放工后，
赶到cc。
本来要去师傅家，
不过很不舒服，
便没去了。
不然还想问他，
又发生什么事了。
就这样吧。不懂说什么了。

reminiscing the past,
i suddenly missed my schooling days.
while looking at friends busy preparing their exams,
makes me missed my exams period too.
the time when i missed my sleep,
the time when coffee was my best friend,
the time when i stayed myself out of internet,
the time when i studied for exams before exams starts.
although i hate studying,
but i will still missed the hardworking me.lolx.
xia xiao mei is coming back on wed!
hahah!
i think my bill gonna explode,
cos we must keep in touch via sms.
glad for her that she gained a lot of experience there.
i think not long after,
shall be our "niu ge" turn to go there.
today 's work is rather ok,
just that the 2 pt is sick,
and both are unable to work.
both are night shifts can!
finally understood how sia feel while planning schedule.
its never easy to find a replacement,
especially last min.
and the fact that there are ppl who cant make it to work everyday.
ms prawny! faster come back!hahah!
rushed to cc after work.
wanted to go shi fu's place.
but wasnt feeling well.
gotta ask him what the hell is happening again.
alright. shall end here.

i hope this month will faster end.
if this continues,
i think i will suffer depression soon.
enough of the tortures.
i just want to lead my own life.
thanks to bby once again.
for trying to make me smile.

how i wish i can have a knock in my head,
and lose my memory....

2009-08-23T22:13:00.004+08:00

今天是明德在我们这里做工的最后一天。。
因为他快准备o水准了。
我的第一个香港朋友。哈哈哈.
蛮吓倒的。
因为他说他会想我勒！！
哈哈哈！
因为我像个姐姐的照顾他？
不知道勒！哈哈哈！
人，往往都来得快，
走得也快。
霞小妹曾经说过，
看到他们渐渐的成长，
是一种对我们的成就。
而他们，也会渐渐的离开。
没关系啦！等他考完试。
就回来啦？
星期天还得做工勒！=（
而且哦！我想我能和502 的司机做朋友了。
哈哈哈！
因为他们都懂我在哪里下车，那里做工。
下车时还会提醒我看车。哈哈哈。
因为有几个会走不同路线。
因为他们要上厕所。
yay！
我的internet也终于能用了。
因为，叫人去reset router。
al 带了他超大架的laptop来！
也进不了咯。
放工后变赶着交钱，
赶着回家。
因为阿嫲生日。
哪料到！我不舒服。
超级不舒服。
非常辛苦。
就没去咯。
不过，也谢谢老公。
只有她知道发生什么事。
好啦!
就到这。。。。

today is mingtak's last day of work.
he's going to prepare for his 'o'
my 1st HK friends.
rather shocked when he say he will missed me.
cos he think's im just like a sister who takes care of him.
people comes and goes easily.
sia once said.
looking at them,
are just like seeing them growing up.
trained them with patience,
and now they are good at sales.
its ok,
gonna wait till he ends his 'o'.
sunday still got to work.=(
and i think i can befriend with the drivers driving bus 502.
cos they noe where i alight, and where i work.
cos sometimes they willgo via diff way,
as they need to go toilet.lolx.
i finally can use my internet!
cos al get someone to reset the router.
he brought his ultra big lappie to work.
after work,
rushed to settle money,
and rushed home,
cos gotta go for ah ma's cele.
who knows!!!
im not feeling well.
very very unwelll.
but thanks to bby!
only she knows why and what happen!
alright.
till then.

2009-08-22T21:20:00.003+08:00

judi 好像快生病了。=（
今早起身全身酸痛，
有气没力的。咳~
做工没精神，
很不舒服咯！
这时候最不能生病啦！
不过，谢谢alice帮忙买早餐咯！哈哈哈！
很不好意思，
因为她老是帮我买东西。
就像上次，
从JB回来前，
帮我们买我们喜欢吃的豆沙饼咯！哈哈哈！
当我们越聊越多时，
就会发现，我们性格很像勒！
不要惹我，不然就死定了那种！=x
今天应该会做乖女孩，
尽量早点睡吧？
很不舒服啦！
本来要meet seventh 的，
可是不舒服，
和家人吃饭后就回家了。
家外有个电梯后真的方便多了。
不用走那么远。
其实哦！只有我家和阿嫲家，
两脚落的电梯开始使用罢了咯！
哈哈哈！
霞小妹到中国了！
7点多这样到!
希望一切顺利吧？
明天阿嫲生日！=）
放工后就要赶回家，
在出门咯！
星期天勒！哎哟~
好啦就这样了哦！=）

judi seems like getting sick again.
feeling restless when waking up this morning.
feeling whole body ache.
but cannot get sick at this crucial period.
thank you alice for getting breakfast for me!=)
feeling pai seh la!
cos she always help me buy things,
just like last week,
when she came back from JB,
gotten us our fav tau sha pia!
while we talk to each other more,
we will realised our characters are really alike.
we are those" you are dead if you step on our tails"
that kind.
tonight might be sleeping early,
cos really uncomfortable.
missed the meeting with my seventh.=(
went straight home after dinner.
having a lift outside my house is really very convenient now.
and we are honoured
cos only ah ma and our house 's lift are being tried out.
sia xiao mei is in china now!
reached round 7 plus.
gonna missed my working partner.
tml's ah ma birthday.
gonna rushed home after work.
ok thats all.
nothign to blog

i feel so damn sad now~~
when can you regain your trust to us?
we have waited for you for soooo long.
and now?
is it that weak?
we missed you soooo much.
each of us will dream of you,
missing you,
waiting for dec.
haix~
1 yr? is it possible?
how to get you back?
we missed you....

2009-08-20T21:58:00.005+08:00

霞小妹明天就飞去中国了。
记错了。哈哈哈！
一去就去到五天。
会蛮想她的！！！
哈哈哈！
razali今天也最后一天。=（
闷死了啦！
哈哈哈！
今天做工还好咯！
只是alvin有点爱讲话！
哈哈哈！
我家的电梯终于好了！
可以用了！！！
不用走远远的走廊了！哈哈哈！
今天的我，
特别早回家，
哪里都没去。
连alice都一直提醒我早回家！
晚上去师傅家。
始终还是他最了解我。哈哈哈！
周末得做工。=（
就作到下个拜五才能休息！啊！！！！
好想念朋友们哦！！！
=（
好啦！不懂要写什么了。
星期六要和老公的哥,pooh 去shopping！
啊哈哈哈！
不能说谁！
免得那女人有来看！哈哈哈！
就没惊喜了！

wan sia is leaving for china tml.
i remember the wrong date. oops~
will miss her leh!
miss someone to talk to.
cos she goes for 5 days sia!
didi razali also last day today.=(
no one to talk to me anymore.
today work is still ok,
just that alvin is quite talkative leh!lolx
my lift upgrading is finally done!
got my own lift now!
woohoo~
specially went home early today.
alice reminded me to go home early too.lolx
went shi fu house at night.
as usual, he understand me well.
gotta work this weekends!
work everyday till fri!
=(
missing my friends.
argh!
alright thats all.
no idea what to update.
boring life.
woo hoo! going shopping with pooh on sat!
cant say the person name,
in case the woman comes ar!
meant to be a surprise!lolx

blackie!!
ur husband, my darling got a new GF behind us
lets go kill her!
she flirt with my hubby! lolx

2009-08-19T21:09:00.006+08:00

霞小妹星期天就要飞去成都了。。。
只剩下我和al两个相依为命。。。
哈阿哈哈！
而她也一定不舍得的我们吧？
哈哈哈！
不知能update什么。。
也许这几天会比较忙点吧？
因为要cover霞小妹的shift，
做工得更谨慎点，
不能出差错咯。
也许会有小小的压力吧？
哈哈哈！
而且哦！
这星期每天做工。
到下星期六才off勒！！！=（
累累累！
因为我要求拜六礼拜off，
如的生日嘛！没办法！
还有什么勒？
弟弟razali明天最后一天实习。。。
就只剩我和些新人了。=（
就这样吧。
生活越来越无聊，
越来越纳闷。

sia xiao mei is leaving for chengdu this sunday,
leaving al and i to support each other.
im sure she super duper miss us too! hahahah.
i dont know what to update anymore.
might be a lil busy this few days,
cos must cover her shift,
though not much changes too.
must be more alert in work,
cannot allowed mistakes can!
remind al al to do his things also.
working everyday till next sat!=(
no choice.
i requested.
cos ru bdae next sat,
so i might be going down after work on fri,
which is like 9pm.
tml is didi's razali last day of internship at work.
gonna missed him.
but well,
people do come and goes easily.
and now im left with all the new pts.
life is getting more boring each day.
thats all.

i dont know what i want anymore.
想念，是一个很痛苦的事。=（

this is my didi at work!=)

the food the DM, wan sia and i bought.
hahahah!
preparing for war.

2009-08-18T01:09:00.009+08:00

突然好想打华文，
不知为什么？
明天休息，
所以今晚能睡迟一点。
除了今天的晚班，
接下来都作早班！
因为七月嘛！
没办法，我比较敏感。。。
也谢谢霞小妹。
我的“情敌”哈哈哈！
因为她都进她能力帮我放早班咯！
霞小妹突然被叫去中国公干。。。。
星期四就要飞去成都了。
星期天才回来。
会蛮想她的！
她一定是在想，
我就知道!因为我可爱吗！=）
哈哈哈！请不要坎我！
由于她得到中国，
所以我星期天得cover 她的 shift 咯!
不然就没DM了。
没办法！=（
这星期只好作六天咯！
不然我很少做星期天的勒！！！
没关系啦！久久一次！
她也不想的。
今天就是她去中国之前最后一天看到她，
因为我明天off，
而她拜三和四off。
所以，我们就拍些照片咯！=)
星期天是阿嫲生日，
所以应该会放些照片，
就等着吧？=）

tml is my off day,
so i can sleep a lil later today.
other than working night shift today,
will be working morn shift the next consecutive days,
cos...=)
ok la cos of 7th month.
thn sia xiao mei noe i am very sensitive to it,
so she tried to give me more morn shifts.
thanks to her!=)
she is being called up to go chi on thurs,
a very last min decision.
going to chengdu on thurs,
coming back on sun.
which means,
i have to cover her shift,
if not no DM.
bo bian!
gotta work 6 days this week.
argh! i seldom work sundays one!
but its ok,
cos its not what she wanted also.
we took some pics!
cos today is the last day i saw her,
before she flew to china.
cos i off tml and she off on wed and thurs.
sunday is ah ma's bdae.
more photos to be up soon!=)

i believe,
that i am getting my answer really soon!=)

我十四年的好姐妹，
敏仪生日。
其他照片还在她那！

和老公与姐妹出门的日子。。。

和同事的照片。。。

2009-08-15T00:52:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BINN YI!
my 14 yrs of friend,
one of my besties.
not forgetting ginny and jasmine.
we are always a part of it.
cele by's bdae latr on!
her 21st!
welcome to my adult world!lolx.
and as usual,
im the oldest among them.
28 july still can be older than them!
can u imagine ? lolx.
but they took care of me more than i do,
oops~
i realised most of my friends do so.
esp ru...
though she always claimed that she will be older if im not pre-mature.
LOL!

i just feel like venting something here.
no offence.
i am just f***ing suay today.
simply not my day!=(
feel like crying can!
everything is not going smoothly.
settlement is always a big problem...
and everytime,
coincidently,
when things happen,
i will be there.
how lucky am i....
all i can do is,
remain calm,
be strong,
rectify the problem,
one by one.
and the puzzle machine died on me today!
and i lost sooo much puzzle cust!
=(
好坏不坏，
偏偏我shift的时候就坏。haix~
really feel kind of stressful at that time.
esp the feeling that kyle will come and nag at any time.=x
but its ok ar!
also over le.
bby set me thinking,
am i cut out to do this?
haix~
i dont know!
i just feel stressful at times,
but i learned from experience.
each experience sets me stronger!

thanks to my girls.
sorry for what happen at thai.
i noe ur saw thru me.
i noe ur saw the tears....
i noe....
i am just being a lil emo at that moment!
nevertheless,
thanks for being by my side.
all i need is a hug and everything will be ok.
and also a shoulder,
for me to lean on.
thanks bby,
for coming over,
though purpose not to see me!lolx.
and we took a pic!
cos i bring her around.
and we went to the photography area!
she hasnt been there for long!LOL
to blackie tan and darling,
i will be ur support too!
love ur!=)

2009-08-12T18:09:00.008+08:00

here to update,
working morn shifts from today till friday.
meeting my girls tml! damn happy can!
photos out...
taken during national day with my colleagues.
once again thnx to al for the treat.
more outings pls~
but sia xiao mei mentioned in her blog?
KTV?
oh my!
i had enough of al + sia's concert at work!
they always torture me!
force me to stand in between of them while they sing!
=p
fri gg sakura with seventh?
yippeee!
cos off on sat and sun!!!
anybody wanna asked me out?
20 of aug is ghost festival.
tell me how to survive thru that month.
but im happy!
cos 19 is day where my promise will end.
though i have to continue this thing,
at least my future plans will not be shifted aside anymore..
and hope that i can get my permission to drink.
1st time i went clubbing drinking coke.=(
nvm, as long as i have fun!
oh yes,
finally my lift upgrading is over soon!
they say can use by this week.
wonder is it true?
if thats the case,
my house outside have our own lift now!=)
by's 21st on 15th aug.
my 14 yrs of friend.
how times flies...
hope dec will come soon,
so that we will reunite once again.
my besties are the one who will never give up on me,
despite having lil time for them.
alright! thats alll for my updates!=)

i am not giving up so soon,
but how long could i wait even more?

us having fun!=)

the reds and the white.

us imitating al's 招牌动作。

the 3 DMS....
全部出动 for national day,
with 3 diff shifts....
judi's 9-4pm, wansia's 2-9pm and al's 4-11pm...

2009-08-11T11:38:00.003+08:00

mummy is back!
so happy!
no need do housechores!=x
and i missed her sooo much can!!!
guessed what?
they bought me a wallet that i have been wanting for soooo long!!
can strike off from wishlist le!lolx
sooo damn happy!!!

working 2pm today.
oh yes!
worked morning shift on national day.
the other 2 DM and i wore red,
and pt wear white.
so we had red and white,
fulfilled national day theme.lolx.
supposed to end work at 4pm,
but i stayed back be free labour,
cos i wanted to watch fireworks.
planned to go home at 9plus,
but they wanted to go pub.
so i joined.
in the end,
i stayed there for 14 hours.
but its ok,
cos i gained a lot of wonderful experience that day!
i learned thru problems we encountered...
after work,
we went to gay pub,
an interesting insight for me.
treated by al.
thanks to him,
alll enjoyed!!!
=D
10 of us went,
and can see the bonding in us.....
HAPPY!!!
photos will be up soon,
waiting for sia xiao mei to send us.

yest worked night shift...
oh my god,
cos we changed our working system,
so there is a lil problem while doing closing last night.
what's worse is im the DM,
so the responsibility is in me.
i almost go crazy while we do closing last night.
in the end,
alice and i OT to 12 plus.
cabbed home. claim from company.
thn ther are sooo many customers last night!
not enough manpower.
i even dragged edwin's time till 1015.
cos each counter left 1 people,
got customer want retake,
alice needed help.
argh!
alright thats all.

2009-08-08T23:26:00.013+08:00

back home.
working morn today.
a v v busy day.
cos must teach pt things,
must take care this and that.
stamp printer got problem,
photos cannot go thru.
ohmy.

hope tml will be a better day.
dinner with ru after work.
train home with alice.
her husband came to fetch her at chi garden.
havent been having dinner with ru can!
chatted with her!
have a nice long chat!
waited for her to knock off,
and we saw mei mei.
she's soooo cute!!!
children are always cute can!
went home,
wash up and go shi fu house.
today is guan yin dan.
daddy sent me to his hse,
pray and went home.
cos shi fu saw me alone,
and say girls shouldnt go home so late alone.
sooo nice!
he always take care of me!

oh yes,
photos will be out.
took a lot of pic last night.
went out with my usual gang.
cele puppy's bdae.
watched up with JJ and bby before that.
a funny show!
even JJ loves it too! =)

its national day tml!
HAPPY BDAE TO MUMMY!
she share the same bdae with spore!
staying after work!
cos i wan watch fireworks!!!!
yippee~
hahahah~
razali might be acc me go see fireworks!
my didi at work! =D
alright thats all!
gosh its 1233am now!
gonna sleep soon!
if not tml cant get up for work!

我终于领悟了。。。。
i finally realized....
im at fault too.....
perhaps, my expectations are tooo high...
对不起。。。

my good buddy, robin tan....

-my bestest sister, ru....

- birthday boy and i

-zhu peng gou you....

2009-08-07T10:14:00.003+08:00

off day today! =D
but working weekends.
guessed its gonna be a busy day due to national day!
hope soooo pls~~~~

worked night shift yeserday,
and went to shi fu house before work.
i feel so relieved after finding him.
visiting him is like visiting a doctor. =x
he is just like my father,
who understand me more than i do.
he is able to tell my personality,
due to them.
he always protect me,
asking forgiveness for my mistakes.
he is able to "diagnose" what problem im having,
and solving my problem in time.
now i dont dare to drink.
i had my punishment.
i finally know why i fell sick on my bdae.
its been 7 years since i know him,
and although i seldom talk to him,
cause he's doing the talking most of the time,
he is able to understand my character.
i am grateful ,
cos he has taught me a lot of things,
things that i ought to do,
and things i cant do.
so that i will not be punished.

alright thats all!
bringing JJ out later!=)
hubby might be joining,
since she's not working!
dating for us! =)
ok thats all.

我想，我始终还是放不下。。。。

2009-08-06T11:48:00.003+08:00

after getting my off on tuesday,
im getting night shifts for next 2 days,
which is yesterday and today.
wanted to go shopping with alice at bugis before work.
but i had plans to go shifu's place.
who knows raining spoiled my plans.
so going over later instead.
ai ya no fate to go out with her,
cos she wanted to go tml,
but i need to take care of JJ.
anyway,
i did something useful.
mop the floor, wash laundry, hang and fold clothes.
these are things i wont do even when im free.
oops.
cos we are too dependent on mummy.
one good thing about night shift is,
i can do housechores in the morning,
before leaving for work.
but i still prefer morning shift,
cos i can have more time with friends.
and,
i will be sooo lazy to get my breakfast,
that i ended eating with my maggie mee.
indo mee mee goreng!
however,
its tasteless without my sausage.=(

hence,
today, i went to the market.
to get my breakfast,
and also go to the usual store,
to get my sausages!
satisfied.
for those who knows me,
i get satisfied easily.
neighbour saw my bags,
and asked, u do cooking?
oh my! a lil embarrassed to say i only cook sausages and maggie mee.
night shift is busier than morning shift,
which makes me think lesser.
but no matter what,
I still LOVE morning shift! hahah.

bringing JJ out tml.
cos his parents arent free to do so.
so i shall bring him back from school,
be his nanny of the day.
alright,
my blog is boring.
no idea what to update anymore.

2009-08-04T14:04:00.012+08:00

meeting darling jess and blackie grace later!
cant wait to disturb them with my "wo hen emo leh"
LOL!
if i kanna slap, you will know why!
did some useful thing today.
washed the laundry,
mopping the floor later.
xiao gu came,
and i helped her with JJ and kaelyn's photo! they are real cute can!
shall upload some of JJ photo in school,
cheeky boy!
at least he can make me smile.=)
bring him to watch "up" on fri.
darling! i know u gt that!
but u cant expect me to bring him to ur hse right?lolx
i got an off today and fri!
can rest!
gg steam boat with darling blackie and xuan toast later!
to cele xuan toast belated bdae!
oh yes,
its joseph bdae today!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR JANSEN!=)
alright, thats all.

bby,
i know im a lil busy nowadays.
that i got no time for anyone.
not even....
i know you care,
and i know you will be there.
im ok!
no worries!
anything i will call u.ok?
thank you!
for being there for me when i need u!=)
now, im afraid to sleep! maybe u will noe why!
cos i hate to dream....

secondly,
to my dearest blackie.
i love u too grace tan!
i will count on you!
my future lies in ur hands ok? LOL!
though u tried to knock me down,
its ok la! im a forgiving person! whahahah!
darling,
i love u too!
dont be jealous ok?=)

2009-08-03T21:53:00.007+08:00

我很emo勒！
this is what i have been telling darling and blackie last night,
when they offered to have dinner with me.lolx
THANK　YOU!
for hearing me grumble.
and for making me smile.
i will be fine!
hopefully.

霞小妹！谢谢你！！＝）
yes, its you!
cos u always call me zhu xiao di....lolx.
thank you sooo much.
for trying to make me smile this afternoon.
trying to sing,
so that i will feel better.
you are deeply appreciated.
as you always say,
再坚强的人也会有垂落的时候。
give me some time,
and i will be fine.=)
you know what?
ACTUALLY!!!
im ok de!
is ur "shi luo sha zhou"
that emo song...
makes me feel emo!!!
hahahah~
but still,
thank you sooo much.
you are indeed a good friend.

im meeting darling and blackie tml!
blackie started school today!
hope everyhting is fine for her!
but then!plans might be cancelled ar!
cos i might have to go back work...=(
but fri OFF!
cos xiao gu cannot take off.
so i got to take care of her son...
if can...
i miss JJ!!=)
ok thats all.

i suddenly missed mummy sooo much.
though i always threw tantrum on her,
always quarell with her,
she never give up on me.
despite how rebellious i was.
now, i need her.
to hear me grumble once again.
i need her ear now!!!
no idea why,
i always feel like tearing when i htink about her!
dont dare to msg her,
cos dun wan make her worry also.
妈咪快快回来！
tml is the 6th time.
but the very 1st time mummy is not here with me...
1 more time.
and i hope everything will be back on track.
i need my life back.
one last time...
just the day before 7th month.
oh my.
tell me how to survive through the seventh month!=x

难道这一切，
就真的这样结束了吗？
我也不知道。。。。。
真的连一个回复也没有吗？＝（

*updated!
i can meet darling and blackie tml!
happy!
im going to tell them!
wo hen emo leh!!!!!
lolx

2009-08-02T15:33:00.006+08:00

im sorry,
if i throw any tantrum to any of you,
nowadays.
decisions and cramps are making me crazy.
thats why.

yest went rounding with darling , blackie and HJM.
blackie drove.
now i noe why she is named blackie!
she got a black heart!
she tried to knock me down TWICE!
lolx.
both accidents taken at my house downstair!lolx.
once is when she tried to reverse for me,
when she fetched me.
but im just behind the car can!
second time was im IN FRONT of the car!!!
she tried to accelerate though she know im in front!
BLACK HEART!!lolx
reason i say we went rounding,
cos inital plan was to go west coast park mac.
but carpark full,
so we changed to queensway mac.
but she missed the U turn!
almost go to AMK nor!lolx
in the end,
we went to king albert park.
when going home time,
she's supposed to turn right,
but she goes straight.
which enters the BKE,
like bringing us to custom like that la!
but lucky can turn back!
only then we are back home SAFELY =x
cos her turning is a lil scary.
the back passengers, me and darling didnt put our seatbelts on.
but actually,
i think she's stressed ar.
cant blame her also.
i think if its me,
i also will do those mistakes.lolx
anyway,
thanks grace for driving us to and fro.

我好不容易的鼓起勇气，
做出这个决定。
我真的很累。
不是你肚子里的蛔虫，
那里知道你想什么？
烦了好久，好久。。。。
不是我放弃，
是你。。
也许，
也许早已料到？
你是不会回复的。。。
是时候想想自己要什么了。
不想在这时候添加你的压力。。。
虽然很不愿意，
不过还是得这么做。

2009-08-01T19:51:00.012+08:00

home alone for a week.
damn sad.
the thought of staying home to face the 2 guys make me even more emo.
ok i know im bad.
luckily im working night shift for wed-fri. =x
will be working for 6 days next week.
off on tues.
bo bian, national day.
need people.
mummy birthday too! =D
but she's back either on the 8 or the 9.=(
she's leaving to her london choco roll~ tonight.
with sis.
sis go business trip, mummy tag along.
so shiok can!
cheaper air tix and sitting A380.
and left me alone,
mopping the floor and doing all her housework.
and dad happily saying.
leave laundry to judi!
wah lao!
all leave to me le!
and mummy actually wanna stock up my sausages but out of stock! =(
damn sianz.

today is a super duper unlucky day.
have not recover from my sickness.
sickness plus cramp equal to die early.
and?
early in the morning spill my cup of coffee on the floor.
damn!
after that,
wallet size printer got prob.
in the end? cannot sell.
puzzle?
machine got prob.
in the end?
fix it nor!
finding screwdrivers and hammer.
just to fix the stupid thing!
and holding hammers using screwdrivers,
remind me of attachment days.=x
and also.....
wah lao!
when kyle came,
all settled.
must thank him also.
cos he's awaken by my call.=x
business bad due to road block for ndp.
haix!
who wanna acc me go see fireworks?=D
oh yes! kyle bought something back from chengdu.
i got a tortoise!
sooo cute can!
i love tortoise!=D
heeehee....
anyway, must still thanks alice.
cos she bought me breakfast.=)
have been coughing like crazy nowadays.
actually i didnt know,
until dad tell me.
i should be glad that asthma did not come along!
argh!
now? my cupboard spoil!
na bei! its seriously damn unlucki le la!=(
hmmm!
whats more to update?
my life is such a mess now!=(
cramp is killing me.
1st time feel so pain that i wish i could just lay on the bed w/o moving.
mumy also find it wierd.
cos this seldom occur to me.haix~

meeting up with shelle soon!
super duper miss her~
darling and blackie meeting me tml!
cos they know i home alone!
and leaving me alone at home will make me more emo!
thanks so much for the accompany!
CONGRATS HJM!
for passing driving!
hee~
meeting u later!
blackie driving! woo hoo~ haven sit before.=x
thanks darling jess also.

i just hope everything is alright now.
hope things can be back on track.
i need miracle. :'(

2009-07-29T19:35:00.003+08:00

this horo is sooo about me!
for leo... =)
sia told me to read this lengthy chi thing.
she tell me its 98% zhun,
so i decided to give it a try,
and its sooo me can!
do read...
狮子座，一个博爱和充满阳光，能量的星座，其实狮子座的人很向往爱情，说白了就是狮子座的人最爱的是自己，他要让自己发光发热，获得别人的爱和崇敬，在这其中，他能够体会到这种来自他人的关爱而感到愉悦，于是，他就爱上了别人。。。>> > 　　>> >>> > 　　狮子座的人很不愿意伤害别人，因为他的内心是善良和充满正义感的，他是重视原则的人，但是，如果他做了伤害别人的事情，即便出于面子他没有说什么，但是其实内心里他会真的好自责好内疚的，虽然别人看不到，但是他的确会好难过。>> > 　　>> >>> > 　　狮子座的人，无论男女，都很容易陷入一份感情，但是热情来的很快，冷却的速度也快得>> >>> > 　　惊人。如果他可以对一份感情持续很长的时间，那么恭喜了，说明你真的很强势很有魅力，足以让他对你死心塌地，否则，狮子座这种内在没有安全感又很敏感的动物，很可能从更有魅力和新鲜的事物上找温暖，因为，狮子座的我们看起来好坚强好阳光好乐观，但是骨子里面的不安感从未消退过，表面的自信只不过是保护自己的盔甲，但并不是很真实。>> > 　　>> >>> > 　　同时，狮子座的人也可以很绝情，不可能吃回头草，字典里没有'后悔'或者'回头'这两个词，因为狮子座的人很爱面子，自尊心比什么都重要，一旦放弃了或者决定了，就不可能回过头去改变，狮子座的人也很怕被伤害。宁可错过一份感情，宁可放弃。宁可不要，也不会冒可能会被伤害的危险，因为太不值得，因为狮子座的人太爱自己了。。。>> > 　　>> >>> > 　　狮子座的人喜欢热闹，但是也很享受孤独，他可以把这两者之间搞得很平衡，他很喜欢跟>> >>> >>> > 　　朋友一起，疯狂的玩闹，成为一个party的主角，但是回到家里，他立马就可以变得异常安静，不喜欢被打扰，他需要自己的空间来思考，如果不给狮子这个空间，对他步步紧逼，>> >>> > 　　那么他一定会抓狂，变得不可理喻，他还会离开你，因为在狮子的字典里，'自由'和'>> >>> > 　　自我'这两词的比重几乎占据了全部。>> > 　　>> >>> > 　　还有，狮子座的人很喜欢新鲜的，华丽的，有质感的，昂贵的，有品位的东西，他也喜欢>> >>> > 　　朴实，但是却不喜欢无聊和无趣，他害怕一成不变的枯燥，他害怕今天就能预见明天的可>> > 　　能性．>> > 　　>> >>> > 　　狮子座的人有两种不同的倾向，一种是很喜欢天然的东西，不喜欢过多的修饰；另一类是>> >>> > 　　很喜欢奢华另类奇特的事物，更多是狮子座是两者兼有．>> > 　　>> >>> > 　　狮子座的人很宽容，通常不会因为小事而斤斤计较，他们喜欢展现自己与众不同的仁慈心>> >>> >>> > 　　和获得尊重。对于过往的爱人，狮子座的人很少去探讨是谁的功过是非，无论当时对方有>> >>> > 　　多伤害自己，但是过去了就过去了，狮子座的人不会去诅咒或者怨恨，因为他们喜欢向前>> >>> > 　　看。狮子座的人相信，只要自己完美和努力，幸福就在前方，更美好的一定在等待着我们！！

think im getting an asthma attack soon! wtf!=x

2009-07-28T23:22:00.009+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR YOUR WISHES!!!!
in regards of sms, msn or facebook!
谢谢你们!
credits goes to my mummy,
cos she bear thru soo much pain.
as all of u know,
im prematured by 3 months.
soooo i have to stay in the hosp for 1 month before discharging.
there was once i almost died too.
sooo, im glad that to be this world!=)

although i got an off today,
i got woken up by the free alarm clock of the construction outside!
sooo noisy that i got a big headache!
hopefully the lift upgrading will end soooon!!!!!
my voice is getting from bad to worse.
think the air at SF is not good! hahahha
everyone is falling sick soon.
-touch wood-

darling worked same shift with me last night.
gracie and xuan toast(darling's fren) came to find us.
popeye closing they still happily sit down and eat can!
buay pai seh! LOL!
but thanks to gracie for coming!
feeling damn guilty!!!
cos i dont meant it to be liek this!=(
and thanks to darling and gracie for offering to acc me today!
thanks to ROBIN and RU also.
cos i told them,
i wanna be alone this yr.
but they WONT LET ME!!!

i actually wanted to be alone today.
there is a part of me dont feel like gg out,
maybe cos pms coming,
making me moodless and irritated.
but due to construction,
there is a part of me makes me wanna get out of my house!
ok! i cant stay alone at home!
and if i stay at home,
i will emo again.
thn darling and gracie will kill me!!
since bby happen to take off today,
i ask her acc me go batok return books for mummy。
i actually wanted ask him smth also,
but seeing him like that ji tao turns me off!
makes me dont feel like asking also.
sooo... he walk his way, i walk mine.=(
maybe i am at fault too.zzz~
bby waiting for me opp.
in the end,
bby and i went watson get my stuffs,
and off we went to jp.
to walk walk and buy my bling bling.
cos i ran out of my bling2.
went home at 5 plus.
thats how i spent my birthday.
eating alone at home.
cos mummy went out. - cries-

planned my breakfast tml!
mee goreng with sausages! -yippee-
i loved to eat sausage!
so whenever there is stock at home,
i will cook with my maggie mee!=)
ok, enough of my rubbish.

mummy and joey is leaving me with the 2 men at home again!
they are going to london this sat!!!!
HELP!!!
housechore goes to me once again.
ARGH!!!
pray hard daddy dont nags!=x

lastly, i wanna thanks....
yao zhong,grace, darling, robin, ru , bby, ai li, binn yi, ginny, li shan, genia, soo hoon, qi li, razali, alice, wan sia, bao lai,ah kun,ah feng, joey sister,JJ,ubai, benjamin, hai ning, angie, baby cousin, wen li, xue le, grace (choir) , angela, aly cousin, diana cousin, jeffrey,jonathan, xin yi, cheryl, noel, jie ning , nizam, hui min, wei fu.
sorry if i missed out any.

wanna thank you all for the wishes. i feel soooo blessed. THANK YOU SOOO MUCH!!

我讨厌我那口是心非的性格。。。。

2009-07-26T20:31:00.006+08:00

this is a special post to my seventh, my girls , and all my friends.
i really wanna say a big thank you to all of you,
for making my day memorable.
nothing can express my gratitude,
and i dont know how to express myself.
but deep down,
im really touched,
i really appreciate it alot.
i appreciate what you girls have done for me.
THANK YOU SO MUCH!
esp to my girls.
thanks for the video.
and you guessed it.
i cried like hell.
i am really touched.
thank you everyone,
for being there for me when im down.
your presense means a lot to me.
really.
thank you so much once again.
and hope you enjoyed urself too.
oh yes,
seventh and the usual ones,
i really loved my red camera! thanks soooo much.

to someone,
thank you for you wrislet.
you might/ might not be reading this.
i can see, i can feel.
but reason of not voicing it out,
cos i dont want to lose this friendship of ours.
i really cherish you as a friend.
i know you can see, you can feel.
i dont know what will happen in the future,
but thank you for everything you have done for me.

我知道，
逃避是不能解决问题的。。。
我宁愿你坦白，
说出一切，
好过让我自己猜测，
让我无阻。
我讨厌，事情的一切。
对我来说，
坦白很重要。
可是，你有做到吗？
我好无奈。
也猜不透。
我不想一直靠猜测，
因为真的很累。
maybe its time to think of what i want.

这一切，真是一波未平，一波又起。

2009-07-26T13:40:00.015+08:00

back.
lack of updates due to work.
have been working morn shift for 2 days,
and night for next consecutive days.
a lil sick right now.=(
and i lost my precious voice again.

anyway,
yesterday was my advance 21st.
mummy forced me to eat egg.
want my life can!
covered my nose, complained while eating that.
im really touched and happy that almost all came.
and esp those who came even when they are sicked.
sorry that i wasnt a good host.
and a BIg THAnK YOU to geni jeff, esp robin.
cos they helped me with the deco.
a big sorry to the 5 who acc me till 3 plus.
sorry that i showed attitude.
but im glad that ur are there for me.
its really enough.
to cover all those disappointment.
yes, im really disappointed.
but well, this has woken me up too.
horo says,
tell them what you really think,
otherwise nothing will change.
but,
what can i say?
so what if i say?
does it help?
do you even care?
even so, i got no courage also.
enough of those empty promises.
it sucks.
i need the strength to overcome all these....
i know i can do it..
anyway,
i really enjoyed myself a lot.
its you people who made me smile.
my mighty ongs, seventh, and alll my friends.
thank you soooo much.
I LOVE YOU ALL!=)
and thanks soooo much for the gifts!
i got a new red camera now!
wooo hoo!=x
alright, pictures shall speak a thousand words.