About Me
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
here to blog!
feeling moody nowadays.
prob cos im giving myself too much stress.
on everything.
and im real tired.
我真的累了
feel like giving up everything at times.
feel like going to somewhere without people knowing me.
自由自在的过生活....
after a callc from zhong last night,
i realised i have seen my GPA wrongly.
i only got GPA of 3 instead of 3.2. wtf....
haix!!!
not satisfied.
overall GPA is 3.2.
i doubt its possible to get an overall of 3.5 even if i get 4 next sem nor.
going into uni?
i think impossible le ba.
sis once talked to me.
and knocked some sense into me.
i really think im unfillial.
though i really loved my mummy a lot.
but... when sis asked...am i there for her?
im the only one who is rebellious in my family.
sis and bro are all v obedient.
v smart.. i tried my v best to learn from them.
hoping to be as smart as them.
since pri sch,
mummy always tot i might retained during pri sch days or even go to ITE.
but i made it into poly.
no one expected it.
sis and bro?
are always not the ones who will made parents worry.
i think im the one.
haix~ i know i have a v bad temper.
i noe im being spoilt.
thats why i dont want xuan to be in my shoes.
i always urged mummy to be fiercer.
to control her.
cos its very hard to control temper once u got used to it.
the reason why i chose to 半工半读 is to reduce the financial stress to parents.
yes. its not easy to support ownself.
without taking allowance from parents.
but at least, they can feel less burden without me taking any money from them.
learning driving, bills , laptop,
all i tried to pay myself.
i have tried.. really...
anyway,
i realli do hoped i can do better for the next sem.
yesterday someone told me...
im like a kai xing guo to them.
but now? am i still one?
i doubt so.... can i find my smiles back?
i am realli tired la....
i feel like an autistic at work.
my office is forever quiet.
no one talks.
i wonder why.
i spent my days typing all day long.
eating sweets to prevent falling asleep.
anyway, im ok!
im strong!
give me some time.
to heal myself.
im merely tired....
on a happier note,
i brought JJ to playground again!
i brought him to market there this time round.
pushing him on the swing arent easy.
i am a kind of person who wont sweat even if i go running.
but taking care of him will make me sweat ar!
hope i can slim down this way!lolx.
perhaps i can try to bring him out every day if i got the time! hee.
nothing to update le!
anyway, hoped i can be in the same class with bbby next sem!
JudiOng blogged at 11:08 PM