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Tuesday, November 18, 2008
i need to blog,
to divert my attention away.
this is the very first time i feel so afraid.
i have always felt its presence,but not as afraid as what i am feeling right now.
ever since i left CC 's building just now,
i sense its presence.
i rushed ru and chun how to walk faster.
i wanted to get home ASAP.
i am afraid. i really do.
soo afraid that i almost cried during the bus trip home.
i beg and beg.
pls do not follow me.
i feel im crazy.talking to the air.
who understand me? no one do.
i feel so bad,
i feel so guilty.
waking mummy up in the middle of the night.
making parents worried about me.
they can tell im really afraid this time round.
why? what have i done wrong?
its useless. it is really useless,
i can sense, i cannot see.
i dont understand what you want.
i cant help you!
i hope this is the 1st and the last time i feeel so afraid!
please do not ask me what happened,
some might understand,
some might not.
i just wanted to blog,
to divert my attention, cos MEL is down .
i just hope to finish my stuffs right now,
go to sleep,
and everything will be fine tml!
JudiOng blogged at 12:20 AM